trying to keep it simple- Jeon Jungkook a student from highchool in his ages of 18, is an average student but has dream to make his dreamlife come true despite the ongoing struggles. Kim Taehyung a student from a different highschool holds a proud...
I was back home now, yes back with that coconut water glass how amusing it sounds of me to wonder what that boy reaction will be if he did ran back to the library deliberately shocking the secreteriat or actually a forgotful mess who went home with that sumg attitude both the situations made me laugh away my tiredness , and I wasn't worried just hopefully he comes back finding it tomorrow and that just such a small bit of luck.
I entered my room already placed my bag in the living room coushin and wearing my slippers my home giving me a welcoming and warm outlook as I entered my room and lay flat over my bedsheet.
My step-mom was watching a TV show while my dad was out for the groceries another well-being day?? I thought to myself. Honestly, I still , even after such many goals and aspirations I am achieving day by day and going through though times all alone with my dad me losing my mom.... Yea that still hurts but I won't die as I wanted to cherish those memories I made with her when she was alive. I am thanking the angels and the universe for still giving me another good mother in her place which helped me heal my wound and still have the strength to be happy and smile.
Even then, the emptiness... I still feel that it doesn't hurts that much now... I have left it like that as myself don't know how to cure that.
As I closed my eyes and sat straight by the bed and did a breathing exercise I had read in magic shop. It said you could still learn to love even if you hated something so much. If this was a fight with oneself I guess both of them will get tired with each other trying to accept that is another chapter.
I rubbed my eyes and went to wash my face, I decided to get the cookies which mom had baked yesterday, taking my plate and decideing to play my very own jazz playlist~~ I smiled and placed my hand on the chin with swag and being proud of my music taste.
After all , after attending 5 tutions as Saturday is my last working day in the week and I could relax to fullest tomorrow Sundayy I decided to vibe away the night till mom called the dinner.
I got out the musical instrument inside the shelves beside my cupboard made out of wood. Slowly streching my hand and bringing it out gently as it was heavy and yes a old instrument curious enough how I still have it?? Well I leave a hint it's related with my dad. As I got a seperate box where I had neatly stacked up the disc of the musicians I have heard growing up and I am still like the biggest admire of them. It doesn't really matter if I am not with the trend some people might think I am being backdated but I believe ppl should sometimes not forgot the things which they used to loved in the past of course the trend has got some amazing songs too and my my genre was pop.
As I kept everything away from the instrument I plugged in the wire and put the disc on it (istg I forgot the name of the instrument guys :"") Heck) and then using my finger to lift the neddle and put it on the disc which was moving in circle.
Now I could here those rapid melodious, soft tunes and the retro noises you hear in lofi or any kind of urban songs I suppose. I sat beside the instrument and moved my head with the melody trying to feel the beauty inside it, I really admired those musicians whose works made out of pure emotions and like something you can feel in the gut but not make it out.
I relaxed myself this felt nostalgic whenever I am listening to this instrument is forgotten now for a fact u can't seem to bring it up freely to my mates. Ah how I wish to show this to someone who would listen to it.
I led myself on my back over the bed again as the Jazz music keeps on playing. I put my hand on my head, honestly I hate this empty feeling it's like so tireing even tough I might not show it off I have days where I would love to let go of everything and just runaway. I mean this milky Way galaxy will end someday too nothing is permanent everything with time will become meaningless and will end, what's the point of working so hard??.
I had a mentality like this and I hated it but it's ok I guess I really don't have someone to open up my true emotions as I feel no one will understand me and my totally making it as my life seems to be too good.
I had the plate of cookies kept on my study table I changed the disc and sat by the chair and ate a cookie.
That crisp, delicious aroma of chocolate cookies with dark chocolate bits. I would love to marry it. I thought to tell my mother to try out a different flavor the Oreas flavor!!! Yum I could hear my mom calling from outside for dinner.
"Well I think I ate my desert soon" As I chewed the last cookie I know not at all healthy I suppose I switched off the songs and made for the dinner.
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I heard my mom telling with proudness in her chest " Yep boys, I made the Creamy~Cajun~shrimp~pasta with tomatoes" She beamed with a smile looking at me while I dad who was back by the grocery shopping praiseing my mom proudly "woohoo darling you are so so talented I appreciate this so much taehyung we should really learn cooking by our chef" I nooded happily ' yes mom this is amazing!! You made this after long time please I can't wait to dig in"
We all sat and the sound of clater of forks and spoon as I went first for the prawn chewing it childlessly and my parents adoreing the sight lol...
It was amazing everything of it. Pasta are really appetizing and a good choice of meal especially in the weekend it was worth it not to mention the fact how creamy it was... GOT OUT OF MY FANTASY BEFORE I STARTED TO DROOL.
This was somewhat my daily life it's all good and well even if it's a act I am glad I feel stable I was getting ready for bed and now started to think about the new boy I met in the town.
I feel I could actually befriend him as he somewhat reminds me of my younger self even tough I can't really assume thinking about the sumg attitude he had today I still can't let go of a laugh my inner senses wants to meet up with him again and actually have a convo with him no matter how werid it gets as I have discovered this beautiful library and I want to become a regular.
With just that I trimed my nails which I had got unoticebly long and landed on my bed with closed lights and looked up at the ceiling from the darkness. All light available was coming from the streetlights outside of our bangalow as I emptied my thoughts, like a light droplet on a leaf and went in for my slumber. ༶•┈┈⛧┈♛
