Sneaky w/ my best friend's dad [Johnny Depp]

Tangible

It was full moon, I was feeling a certain way.
I needed to get rid of this feeling so I went up to the belcony to figure things out.
And also to look at the luminous moon.

My heart picked up speed when I saw that Johnny had already taken my favorite spot. I sighed and took a deep breath,gliding quietly next to him. I kinda didn't want him to notice me but that's impossible.

"Amazing sky". He says,dragging on his brown cigarette.

"Of cause,I love the moon". I smiled,glancing up.

He turned his face to me and I swear,the moon shun brighter. His brown eyes glistening as if he were crying.
Was he? Am I imagining things because of this stange feeling?

What are you doing to me, Johnny?

As if on purpose,he combed his fingers through his disheveled,brunet hair.
How I love this man.
Love that is forbidden at all costs.

"I feel strange, I've never felt this way before and I'm sure you feel it too. It's so unfortunate that we can't ...do anything about it". He sighed, turning his attention to the moon again.

I wanted to cry,he was sort of rejecting me and it hurt.
Sort of,what a weird things to say and of cause,a peculiar situation at best.

"Johnny,can't we just..." I trailed off,not knowing what was even proper to say this moment.

He turned to me,almost smiling. A sad smile as he examined my half naked body.
I was in nothing but a silk gown a d underwear of cause.

"I know". He wrapped one arm around my thin waist and pulled me in,gentle to the touch.

"Forget about other people for a second. What do you want?" He asked,never turning away.

No one had ever asked me that before but then again,if they had I wouldn't know what to say. It's different now,I know what I want.

"I want you". I whispered, I dared not look into his eyes but rather focused on the suddenly fascinating ground.

Without a second of hesitation, he kissed me under the shimmering stars.
My body went numb,I had no idea how to react. It was so surreal.

I kissed back,my hands roaming his covered chest.
His eyes were shut as if he were savouring each moment.
He was passionate about love.
He moved me to his king sized bed and laid me down gently, locking the door.

He stalked over slowly whilst undressing himself.
My eyes never left his body until he reached the edge of the bed,leaning over.

He paused for a second,seemingly scanning my body with tears in his eyes.

"I think I adore you".

I grabbed him by his shirt and kissed him passionately. Crawling on top of me and o to the large bed he pinned me down.

"I adore you as well,Johnny Christopher Depp". I breathed heavily,my hair was in a bun,strings falling down.

With that said,he moved my locks to the back of my ear,his manly fingers gliding along my cheekbone.
It gave me butterflies again.

We kissed until we were fully exposed and burning with passion. His lips tickled almost every inch of my body and between my legs.

"Are you ready for this?" He asked like he didn't want to ask the question but he smiled when I said yes.

...

The sun shun on my face when Johnny opened the curtains,the sun was at it's peek.

"Morning, love". He walked over and gave me a good morning kiss.

"The sun compliments your skin so well". He smiled,admiring my body again.

I smiled,fiddling with his hands and admiring his tattoos I'd never mention.
He had a messed up past.
The memories of his former wife sprang up which made me cry in front of him.

Shit.

"Hey hey,what's happened?" He asked,wiping away my tears before they could fall down

I sniffed.

"Nothing,it's fine. I'm fine,you're...fine". A crooked smile was displayed making him frown slightly.

"Don't you trust me?"

"Of course I do".

"So tell me what made you cry like that?"

"You wouldn't wanna...know"

"I do if it's making you cry". He nearly shouted,the irritation was getting the better of him.

"This,Johnny. This". I blurted out,pointing to his tattoo on his fingers that spelt out a word I will not mention.

"Exactly my point,you'd get angry that's why I wanted you to drop it". I cried as I spoke, hiding my face as much as I could

I didn't want to see him angry or hurt.

"That's in the past, so you do me a favour..." He trailed off,heading to the door and opening it.

"...and drop it". He banged the door shut,making my heart fall to the bottom of my stomach.

The way he said past was filled with so much hate.
I hated myself for even thinking about it. His voice sounded shattered, like I summoned a demon from his past to haunt him.

Shit,I can't leave him alone like that.

I need to apologise.

...

Lily was on her phone when I bumped into her,searching for her dad.
She smiled and greeted me.

"Have you seen Johnny?" I asked,not even greeting back.

"His,his...where is he? I could've sworn I saw him in the-"

"He can't be alone right now!" I yelled,throwing my hands up dramatically.

Calm down.

Calm down.

His study room?? The place where he keeps his wine? Yup .

It took me a while but I finally found him sprawled on the floor,wine stains everywhere.
Glass shattered and a piece of glass dangling between his fingers.

"Johnny! Johnny please". I whispered in terror. Trying to lift him up but he was just too heavy.

"Li-" I felt his infex finger press against my lips,shutting me up with a desperate face.

"I don't want her seeing me like this,I'll do anything..." He trailed off,forcing himself up.

Tears slid down my cheek when I saw his impaled arm, thick blood oozing out.

"I'm sorry,I'm so so sorry I promise I'll never-" His soft lips pressed against mine,shushing me as his oppressed arm glided through my hair.

"It's not your fault,I was stupid. It was me,all me and I can't blame you for caring".

"I love you". He whispered,laying his head against my breasts.

"I love you".

"I love you,I love you,I love you..." He said it like a mantra until I couldn't hear him anymore,he passed out on my chest with tears in his eyes.

Is it weird that I want us to stay like this a little bit more?