By The Strings

24~ whats left but pain

Kiba left after Temari told him he should to protect his village after the recent attack, her heart hurt for her brother.

She knew he was blaming himself, he had been beating himself up every single day.

Both their brothers had been.

"Just let it out..." Kankuro was never the best with his feelings or comforting people but he was doing pretty good right now.

Gaara went to grab the now reattached door but she gently grabbed his wrist knowing what was best for her closest friend.

"I think we both know." He nodded with a sad expression, they both turned to leave and give the pair some privacy.

"From what you said where she was stabbed-"

"Yeah... I know..."

They walked in silence knowing what the other was trying to say.

I wiped my tears and boogers onto his once clean shirt, I would feel bad but it was the last thing on my mind at that moment.

Without me even realizing it we were now magically in his room. "Figured there would be more comfortable than a hospital bed..."

He was definitely right, the sand village hospital beds where pretty damn bad.

"You don't have to tell me anything but if you want to I'll listen." He was doing his best to help her but he just didn't know-how.

"Men are disgusting " I mumbled into his shirt still crying, he smelled nice as I laid next to him cuddling into him.

That line alone sent chills through his being, he knew exactly what she was saying.

"You know what's even grosser?" He tried to cheer her up.

"Your shirt?" She laughed a little through the pain.

"Oh definitely. " he laughed too as she sniffled.

His fingers detangled her oily hair, she needed a shower but he would feel like an ass if he said it.

"Do you care if I use your shower?"

He shook his head no before tossing her an extra shirt and a pair of unworn boxers.

"I'll go see if Temari has made dinner yet!" He called walking out of the room.

He had been told about Yosuke by Kiba and he was pretty torn about it, he had known something she didn't though.

Yosuke was going to be a dad soon. Judging by how long she was missing and asleep she should have about 11 or 12 days until she delivered the pups.

"I'm going to make her favorite meal, could you give this to Gaara?" She handed him a white letter. As much as he wanted to peep he knew it was probably something boring.

He carried it to his room and slid it under the door not feeling like a conversation.

I was laying on his bed twirling the sleeves of his large shirt, I looked so sad and rightfully so.

"Do you hate me now...?" I sniffled as some tears still made their way down my face.

"Oh boy, I'd be a hippocrat from hell if I said yes." He tried to make her feel better even tho he knew it was a lie.

I smiled a little wiping tears from my face, it was obvious he was lying but he was trying.

I touched my healing wound know where it was meant I could probably never have a child of my own, it hurt to know but I was okay with it.

That memory of our first mission made me feel a little better knowing even if it was just for a short moment i got to live that 'what if' i had always wanted to...

"Temari made dinner,  come on."

The weeks went by, I could barely bring myself to get out of my bed and any food I ate just came back up unless it was bread.

Obviously, the sand three were extremely worried as well as everyone from the leaf who cared for me.

I had gotten a letter or two from Shino and his father, Shibi but had yet to see them in person.

I hadn't left this room, not once in 9 weeks. I missed my best friend and companion so much...

The Hokage had said I was free to stay as long as I like in the sand as long as the Kazekage was on board with it, obviously, he was.

"I have a surprise for you, but on the condition that you get out of the house." Kankuro was holding a medium size box impatiently.

"I don't want to go outside." I curled into my blanket further.

"Your loss then." He placed something on me and it instantly peed on me.

"What the hell!" I yelled jumping out of bed, "I told you."

I picked up the puppy with no expression on my face unsure.

"Yosuke... before you left he um... he got a neighbors dog pregnant and she had puppies. Your mom and sister are going to come pick up the others later today but said you could keep that one." He grabbed my shoulder seeing the tears start back up for the 100th time this week.

I held the puppy close crying as the void in my heart gained back a piece, I was grateful but didn't know how to express it.

Later that day I met with my mother and sister, we named the little guy and they left.

I had lost so much but I finally realized what I had, Kankuro was an amazing guy, and this puppy was my world.