Dinner was kind of quiet, cause of what happened earlier.
"This is good." I tried to break the silence.
"Thank you."
I sighed, "What you thinking about Shad."
"Every since earlier, you told me something, and I think I need to tell you something."
"What is it?"
"Um, I never told anybody this but, I had twins."
"Twins, as in kids? Like babies?"
"Yeah." He noded.
"And what happened."
"They passed away, along with their mother."
"I- i'm so sorry, was this recent?"
"Like 5 or 6 years ago, thats why I was in New York, visiting their grave,"
"They lived there?"
"Yeah, we met here, moved to New York wanted to start a family, and I promised after she had the kids i'd wife her."
"Shad, im soooo sorry."
"Its okay, and you know whats crazy."
"Whats that."
"You remind me so much of her, and you look like her a lil bit."
"Oh...."
"Im sorry, I shouldn't have said that."
"No im just trying to process, all of this, so like... When we have sex what do you see."
"Honestly, I see her."
I mean, I felt bad for him and all, but... He can't be seeing her, he needs to see me, me, ME... Shad was a really nice guy, I just hope im not making a wrong decision and rushing things and all this end up like Mario.
I ran my hands through my hair, "That was deep Shad, it really was."
He got up taking our plates, cleaning the kitchen, I thought about things, and I needed to be a WOMAN, I think this needs to be taken to with the girls. All girls meeting.
