Is This Real Love, Or A Dream (An O2L Fan Fiction)

Chapter 23

(Picture and video of Connor's confession)

Connor's point of view

So I told my friends about me being gay, and leaving O2L, it was the most hardest thing I have ever done.

The girls were crying their eyes out, making me feel upset. I know they love me, and I love them, too.

I'm gonna miss them soo much, but it's for the best of me, and everyone else.

Everyone left so I can do my video, to tell our fans about the news.

I'm really nervous, I just don't want any hate or hurtful things.

I really hope that our fans will take it well. The last thing I want to see, is everyone hating on me, and calling me mean things.

I really don't want to have to deal with that.

I get everything ready for the video.

Once I'm done setting up the camera, I begin the video.

Here I go.

"Hello, beautiful people. I know today isn't my day of the week, but I have some important news. I've been very hesitant about if it was real or not. And I've come to the conclusion that, this is really happening, so I have to do this..." I pause for alittle.

I try to hold back the tears that start to form in my eyes. This is really hard to do.

"Well here it goes... I'm gay." At this point I'm crying.

"This was a really hard thing for me. To sit right here, right now to tell you all. I was so confused at first, I was scared. I was scared that, if it was true that I would be judged. I didn't want that, so I kept it to myself. But here I am, telling you my news." I tell the camera.

I'm trying to hold back the tears.

"There's more, though... I'm leaving O2L..."

This is really hard. I'm trying so hard not to cry.

I really hope I don't hurt anyone, by making this video. But it's best for me.

"This is a really hard decision. I'm trying so hard not to cry. I hope that, I'm not hurting you. I really don't want you all to be sad, but this is best. It just has to happen like this."

"Every single one of you means the world to me and I just want you to know that... I love you all."

That's it, I can't hold back the tears that are brimming my eyes. I just let them spill, but whip them away.

"This is not a goodbye, I just need some time. To live my life, and learn more about my innerself. To respect my options, and to respect that everything is gonna change. So I love you all."

I'm done filming the video.

I turn off the camera, and just sit there for alittle bit. To redeem myself, and to process everything that had happened today.

I'm exhausted from it.

It's been a long day. I head up to my room, and go to bed.

Hello, so I'm at the full point where I'm seriously crying so hard that I could barely think. By the way, I didn't put what he really said in his video, so I found the video, and you can watch it. I hope you liked this chapter. There's more to come.

Lots of love.

Isabella