GAÉ | 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲𝘁𝗲.

19.

seungmin: jisung
seungmin: semester is over
seungmin: you're coming with us to jeju island
seungmin: no complaints.

jisung: i'm not
jisung: i have shit to do
jisung: plus half of them are pissed at me

seungmin: almost all of them although chan and bin are neutral.
seungmin: im on your side but don't make me regret it.
seungmin: now felix is going to but you will be on your best behavior.
seungmin: seriously don't cause any problems because we're supposed to be relaxing.

jisung: i'm not going seungmin
jisung: end of discussion

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snatching his arm away jisung walked beside hyunmin quietly. the latters amused laughter making him roll his eyes in annoyance.

"at least act like you're enjoying yourself."

"i'm not." jisung answered back. hyunmin smiling briefly "you're still such a...."

"bitch?"

"well, i wasn't going to say it but yeah."

"saw your friends today. they hanging out with everyone but you?"

"...your point?" shrugging hyunmins hand away jisung crossed his arms. he knew they were all hanging out. he was the one who chose to take initiative to step back.

"you have nobody now. once again you've pushed everyone who cared away."

"yeah." running his fingers through his hair jisung swallowed.

"um..i—this doesn't change the fact that i hate you hyunmin. everything you did to me..you're disgusting for it. and one day—i'll get over it. i swear i will." jisung spoke up and although his words were quiet the weight of them was heavy. he didn't want to cry. to remember everything he purposely forgot.

"what i did to you?"

"..don't play stupid. everything. from the manipulative actions. the hateful words. all the non-consensual photos you took and plastered everywhere. do you think i'm stupid? you're a disgusting human and the only reason i'm doing this is because felix doesn't need to be brought into my mess. you're the bad guy here. not me."

stepping away some jisung stared ahead. he hated being confrontational. he hated arguing. he hated sitting there and being told he was stupid for feeling bad.

it wasn't felixs fault how jisung had reacted the way he did. and he wasn't even bothered about the sex anymore. he didn't care. but he was scared that they'd see him differently. treat him different. it was so easy for people to see something and feel like they knew everything. feel like they shouldn't hear both sides. yes that was jisung who was plastered over the school in a nasty way. but he had no knowledge nor had he consented to the photos in the first place.

he was underage and easily influenced by those older than himself. hyunmin was two whole years older and a sweet talker. it hadn't been too hard to wedge himself inside the sixteen year olds mind. to make him believe lies and things, to break him away from his friends and people he knew. he manipulated jisung and kept him on a tight leash. telling him how nobody would like him anymore. nobody would care for him because he was smart. only hyunmin cared. only he would be there for jisung. and only he would love him.

it was easy. jisung was easy. he believed those sugar coated lies, did everything hyunmin wanted almost. but after a while jisung found himself pondering. if hyunmin loved him and only him, why was he asking him to do dirty things with his friends? why was he so adamant on taking jisungs virginity? why was everything so influenced by sexual intentions?