The Royal Secret

16

"You did what!?" Maria exclaims.

"I kissed Zack." I say innocently.

"No way!" She says practically bouncing off the walls.

"Hey since we're on good news I heard Jax is pissed you left." I frown.

"You think he'll come back for me?" I ask worriedly.

"He probably will but Zack and Andre won't let you go without a fight." She says certain.

"I hope so." I say, I really do hope they put up a good fight.

"Kyra!" Zack calls Maria winks as she leaves the room I roll my eyes.

"Yes?" I ask Zack smiles standing in the doorway.

"How are you feeling?" He wraps his hands around my waist and I smile.

"Better."

"I have to warn you Jax is coming soon." I shudder burying myself into Zack's chest. "It's okay nothings going to happen to you."

"I don't want to be trapped again." I tell him.

"I know Ky, I know." No you don't Zack.

He lifts me up and gently lays me down in his bed he climbs in beside me wrapping his arms around my body.

"Sleep love." I close my eyes keeping my tears from falling I want Jax.

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Tears stream down my face she's dead, I burst through the door my father looks at me and he looks very mad that I just interrupted a meeting of his.

"He killed her!" I scream sobbing.

"Who?" Someone asks me.

"Andre killed mom!" I scream.

My fathers eyes widen and he looks at me I know he blamed me he knew it was supposed to be me, he knew I fucked up and got caught.

He hated that she died because of me.

He started drinking and abusing me to take away his pain. Jax saw it he saw it all and he hated it he wanted to take away my pain.

I walked into the training room Jax was there he walked over to me and grabbed my face.

"Again?" He asked me I nodded he took me in his arms. "You need to get some rest Kyra when was the last time you slept."

"I can't, the nightmares keep me awake."

"Kyra it wasn't your fault." He says gently.

"You don't know that, you weren't there it should have been me Jax I should've died!" I yell distressed.

"Kyra stop believing everything your father says please."

"He's right Jax it's all my fault."

Jax sighs "I'll get you out of there I promise Ky."

I gasp sitting up in bed tears running down my face get me out of here Jax please.

"Kyra?" Zack asks sitting up beside me "you okay?" I nod sliding out of bed.

I stand up and pace around running a hand through my hair I want to go home tears run down my face and my breathing increases dramatically.

"Kyra what's wrong?" Zack asks.

I ignore him pacing around the room trying to calm down my breathing but I can't it increases rapidly my hearts pounding so fast. I drop to the ground hugging my knees to my chest.

I want to go home, I feel like a weak child but I can't take it anymore I can't do this anymore.

"I can't do this anymore." I say in between breaths.

"Hey, hey Kyra it's okay it's okay look at me please calm down."

Zack wraps his arms around me I struggle to breath rocking myself back and forth I need Jax. Being trapped here is breaking me slowly and I can't handle it anymore I just can't.

"Zack." Andre walks into the room looking at us I still can't calm myself down and Zack isn't helping.

"God dammit Andre." Zack says frustrated.

"What the hell did you do to her!?" Andre asks.

"Nothing asshole go get Maya and Maria now!" Zack yells.

Andre leaves and a few minutes later Maya runs into the room. "Shit." She says dropping down to me. "Hey, hey Kyra your okay it's okay I'm here."

Zack backs away and Maria and Ally run in after Maya all of them try and calm me down.

"Kyra babe your okay were all here." Maria says. Eventually they calm me down and I collapse into Maria's arms.

"I miss mom." I say quietly looking at Maya she frowns and shakes her head.

"It wasn't you Ky." I close my eyes sucking in a breath.

"No matter how many times you try and say that it won't ever make it true Maya."

"You need to sleep Ky."

"I can't." I whisper.

"How about a drink then." She speaks softly to me I just nod standing up.

Maria and Ally look at me I just walk out of the room pushing past Andre and Zack not even caring if Maya follows me.

Jax

"Get her back." Evan says to me.

"Dammit Evan you know she's fine, she's doing her job."

Evan slams his fists on the table looking at me "it's been a damm month Jax get her back!" He yells. "She's destroying herself in there Jax and you know it!"

"She was fine before." I know the words are a lie, I hate having to wait for her to finish the job I hate that she left so suddenly we weren't prepared.

That night I was terrified when I came home and she wasn't there, Evan found her a day later at Andres castle.

I knew even though we weren't prepared we had to start the plan immediately and I knew it would take longer than expected.

I wanted her in my arms but I couldn't she was strong she'll come home to me soon.

"Jax if you don't go in there and get her I will, it's been too long." Evan says.

"One week Evan one more week and I'll go and get her." Evan rolls his eyes not happy with my answer but I had to give her time to work.

Please be safe Kyra, I'm coming soon.