The Royal Secret

26

I woke up with a pounding headache I touch my face and wince. Maya must've punched me freaking hard I'm sure that's bruised.

"How much did you fucking drink?" Jax asks when he notices I'm awake.

"Not a lot."

Maya snorts "she was past gone when I found her last night."

I roll my eyes it's too early for this. I look around me great it's a damm reunion.

"I was fine." I snap at Maya.

"Two bottles is not fine!" She says.

Jax groans running a hand through his hair "what happened to your face?"

"Maya happened." I state.

Jax looks at Maya who shrugs "she practically begged me to fight her."

"Kyra! You know you can't fight you've refused all the training you can't just jump into a fight!" Evan snaps at me.

"I was fine." I say.

"You we're not! You collapsed to the ground crying when I left you." Maya says crossing her arms in front of her chest.

"Kyra babes." Maria says walking to me. "Honey we're worried about you, all of us are you need to let us help you."

"I'm fine." I tell her she shakes her head.

"Your not fine! Kyra Jax found you passed out in the lawn for crying out loud! Look at your face and tell me your fine! Or how about the fact that you haven't slept in so freaking long! You shut us all out, you won't talk to us you've refused all of Evans help with training and yet you try to start a stupid fight with Maya! Kyra your not fine!" Maria explodes on me.

I look at her I can't take it anymore she's right and I'm too stupid to admit it and instead of admitting it I get up and I walk away, I pass by everyone and I just walk away.

"Where do you think your going?" Jax asks me.

"A walk." I respond opening the door cringing at the sudden light and walking into the woods alone.

"Mama!" Liam calls running up behind me.

"Go away Liam go back to Jax." I turn to look at him he stops staring at me. "Go away mama wants to be left alone okay?"

"Why can't I come."

"JUST GO AWAY!" I yell at him instantly regretting it Liam backs up away from me his smile instantly gone.

"Oh, okay." He sniffles turning away.

"No Liam I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell." I reach out for him but he runs up to Jax wrapping his small arms around him.

Jax stares at me lifting Liam into his arms, Liam sniffles tears running down his face from my outburst at him.

I stare at them before turning and walking away, you fucking idiot Kyra pull yourself together.

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I slump against a tree I don't know how far I've gone nor do I really care I look up at the starry sky its already dark, I'm starving and I have no idea where I even am.

They wouldn't care if I didn't come back right? They all hate me anyway even my own son. I Barry my face in my arms wrapping them around my body.

Your an idiot Kyra.

I stay like that for awhile shivering in the cold I could go back but I don't want to I'm not needed there anymore I don't fit in with their family anymore.

That Kyra is long gone.

I hear rustling near by a wild animal probably, maybe they're hungry and want a snack I don't really care if I become that snack.

I don't move from my spot when I hear it getting closer the sound of a wolf probably I hear the animal approach my spot and then it barks.

It's almost like Lucifers bark wait Lucifer, I look up and sure enough Lucifer is standing there wagging his tail at me he barks again.

"Lucifer!" Jax calls jogging up to him he looks down at me and sighs. "Good boy Lucifer." Jax pats him on the head.

"Just go away." I mumble to him.

"Baby, your freezing and I bet you haven't eaten anything let's go home please."

"I'd rather die out here."

"Don't be so dramatic." Jax says walking up to me and gently lifting my body into his arms. "We're going home weather you like it or not." He says following Lucifer whose leading the way home.

"Fine whatever." I say laying my head against his shoulder.

I open my eyes when we get closer to the house we haven't said a word to each other the entire way back. Jax gently sets me down and pushes open the door to the house I step in, immediately everyone is staring at me.

"Thank god." Maria says "you were gone all day we were worried.

I don't respond I turn to go to my bedroom and sleep but Jax grabs my waist. "Nope." He says steering me into the kitchen. "You need to eat." He says I sit down on the bar stool laying my head against the counter.

"I'm not hungry." I tell him.

"Too bad."

Eventually he places a plate in front of me and forces me to eat the pasta before following me into the bed, he takes me in his arms holding me against him.

"I love you so much Kyra, I just need you to love yourself too." He whispers to me.

I don't answer instead I ask him "is Liam okay?"

"Are you?"

"I suppose." He lays his head in the crook of my neck and sighs.

"You don't have to be yet, we'll work on it okay?"

I nod turning around in his arms he smiles and I lean in pressing my lips to his he stills before returning the kiss it's not soft like I started it it's filled with hunger and lust.

I open my mouth inviting him in his tongue explores my mouth I climb on-top of him and he groans into my mouth before pushing away.

"Not yet baby." He says "you need sleep."

I shake my head. "I need you."

"I'm right here baby." I roll my eyes.

"I need you inside of me Jax, to touch me please." I beg.

"No." Is all he responds with rolling me off him and wrapping his arms around my waist. "Sleep."

Ass.