Its been a week since you talked to Wilbur. He is really trying to make you feel happy, and he thinks you're getting better... little does he know... Its been so much worse, you have not been eating enough and cutting almost daily, you feel fucking terrible. But you keep going.
Numb
You are fucking numb
You dont feel shit
No pain
Nor happiness
Its depressing really
You should've given up already
Its not worth it
Everything is just another thing to disappoint you
STOP IT! please. You scream in your head.
It is worth it. I do like living. I can feel happiness when im with George.
Oh god George
Hes just amazing
He makes you feel worth it
He IS worth it
Hes the reason you are trying to stay clean
Hes the reason you are trying to eat
Hes the reason you didnt give up yet
Hes just so perfect
You put on some music and One Day starts playing. You instantly get a bit happier because its your favorite song.
*one day oh baby isnt life so FUCKING INCONSISTENT *
After listening to music for a while you start to zone out a bit, and thinking about what you are gonna go tomorrow.
You can ask George to come to the beach? Nah he will see your resent relapse. Maby the woods are a better idea, yeah lets do that.
*you message George*
Hey do you wanna go to the woods tomorrow?
George
Yeah sure
Sounds fun
Cool ill pick you up after school :D
George
Pog ill see ya later :]
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You smile at your phone.
God hes just so fucking cute
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Drowning (dnf fanfic)
FanfictionHi this is my first fanfic, English isn't my first language so I will make spelling mistakes. I don't put trigger warnings at the beginning of the chapter, if you are sensitive then you should not read this TW: depression, self-harm, eating disorder
