Drowning (dnf fanfic)

Chapter 8

"CLAY! DINNER!" you hear Drista scream from downstairs

(we are just gonna pretend dream has 2 older sisters. sister 1 is called Drista she/her pronouns and she is 4 years older then dream, and sister 2 is called Niki she/they pronouns but only dream knows and they are 3 years older then dream)

"Fuck" you say while walking downstairs

"What are we eating?" you ask Niki

"Drista and her boyfriend baked pancakes" she says excitedly

Great one of my fear foods. You think

"They look so good" you say trying to be excited

they are like 300 calories per pancake

don't eat them

they are so high in kcal

you already are too fucking fat

just eat one and say you are full

then it will be fine

*small time skip to end of dinner*

"you full?" says Drista her boyfriend (let's call him Frank)

"yeah I wasn't hungry anyway, but it was very good tho" you say

"that's alright, and it was fun baking them" Frank says with a smile

* you're in your room after dinner*

FAT

you are so unbelievably fat

like how do you even walk

how are you not ashamed with eating

how do you live knowing you are so fucking fat

purge

NOW!

but, but I cant there are people at home

that doesn't matter

you ate and now you will pay for it

get on your knees and stick your fingers down your throat

you get on your knees in front of the toilet, and stick your fingers in your throat.

you push them down so deep but you don't even gag

how can you not even trow up what the fuck

you are such a pussy

look its the fat cow that cant even purge

Jesus fucking christ

I am so disappointed in you

then do a workout

NOW

you go in your room again feeling a bit nauseous, and you look up a silent workout

*Time skip baby to like 10 pm*

"Alright imma go to bed because I'm getting kinda tired" you say while jawning

you get up and everyone says goodnight

you look at your phone and see one new notification from Tommy
you smile

Ey big C wanna hang out after school today?

Sure what you wanna do?

Lets go to the skate park, also lets ask Gogy

sure lmao if you want to

oh cmon I know you want to

you smile bc he just knows you too well.

you dont deserve him
hes to good for you
he thinks your annoying
he doesnt like you

JUST SHUT UP
He does like me
Right?
im sure he does

you go lay down in your bed and just mess around on your phone

*one new notification from Sapnap* hey man you good?

you ignore the message and watch some more tiktoks

Do it
cut yourself again
you ate way to fucking much
now you need to be punished
fat cow

you start crying as you grab you blade and towel (its like 1 am btw)

A/N big chapter lmao