Heat [Omegaverse, Brolby, SamandColbyFic]

Chapter 23

"Brennen raped me, didn't he?"

Sam didn't know what to say.  It was not what he had expected to be the first thing Colby said to him since Sam had lost control on him.

Fuck... god dammit, they weren't even going to get through that conversation before they had this one.

"Sam?" Colby asked, as if Sam might have missed that he had spoken.  Colby's voice was deadly calm, his eyes leveled at Sam, "He did, didn't he?"

Sam swallowed.  Because fuck, Colby had called it rape.  Sam had thought he would, but to hear it... that was something else entirely.

He still needed to respond.  "You were dying, Colby..." he said, the words feeling choked in his throat.  "You were... we didn't have another choice."

Colby was still staring at him, "So you knew," He said, and it wasn't really a question.

Sam nodded, not sure if he was helping his case or digging a deeper grave.  "He didn't... he didn't want to, I didn't want him to," he tacked on quickly.  "I swear I never would have, if we had any other option but..."

He stared at Colby imploringly.  "But we had to... had to get your heat under control."  His words to Brennen came back to him, promising the other Alpha that he'd tell Colby- "And Brennen wouldn't have... wouldn't have just done it."  The hard part. "I made the call because I needed you not dead."

Colby was still staring at him, but it was like looking at a maelstrom through a cloudy window, knowing the chaos that raged on the other side.  Colby was... Sam didn't know what to make of the expression he saw on his best friend's face.

He didn't recognize it, and that scared the shit out of him.

"I'm sorry..." Sam said quietly, feeling like he needed to say it.  "I'm sorry I had to- I'm sorry we had to...". He couldn't say it.

"Had to rape me?" Colby said it for him.  And fuck that was a tone Sam didn't think he'd heard before.  Some mix of anger and frustration and hatred ...

Something sick twisted in Sam's chest, in his gut.  "It was that or risk you dying or having brain damage," Sam said tightly.  "Brennen..." And he didn't miss how Colby flinched a little bit at the Alpha's name.  "He didn't lose control on you.  Not like... not like I did..." He felt tears burn at the back of his throat.  "God, I'm sorry.  I'm sorry I..."

Colby's face didn't soften, only growing more and more bitter and brittle, like he might explode at Sam any moment.

"I'm so fucking sorry..."

Colby didn't answer, just looking down at the blanket over his lap.  His body language was tight, and Sam waited for the explosion that he could see boiling just beneath the surface.

"I was on the phone with them, when all of this was happening," The woman spoke, and both Sam and Colby jumped.  Sam had forgotten she was there.  He'd been wondering who the woman in the room with them was, but connected the voice and context to Nadja, Colby's doctor.  "From what Brennen was telling me of your symptoms, there was a real risk of irreversible damage." Her voice was apologetic.  "It was not a solution I would have suggested in any other scenario."

Colby shuddered, now looking up at Nadja with some form of betrayal.  Sam watched him swallow, and look back at the bed.  His fists were clenched tight, and Sam wanted to reach for him.  He took a few steps towards the omega.  "Colby..."

"You should go," Colby finally spoke, and the words sounded like they'd been dragged over shattered glass the way they were shredded.  "Both of you."