You Broke Me First

Ch. 30- Leave

3rd POV

"So..."

Denki spoke, breaking the very awkward silence.

"..." 

"Zip it Pikachu."

Bakugo spat, crossing his arms over his chest.

"When do you think Midoriya will come back?

Todoroki asked sipping some tea.

"Shut it half'n'half."

Bakugo said in annoyance.

"I WANT ZUKU!"

Baster cried out as he scratched at the door. And yes he was in human form.

"I SAID SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

Bakugo yelled making small explosions. As you can see, Kastuki was the most affected by Midoriyas new mood and such...Well besides Baster. They all noticed how he became distant and how he always disappeared for a little more than an hour during the early evening. Sure he comes back, but it's always around three to four in the morning.

Everyone is just worried for their friend/crush. Right now everyone is just waiting for the boy to show up. Before you ask, yes they stayed up till four in the morning just to speak with Deku, and yes Bakugo was the one who forced everyone to do so.

And right on time, the door opened to the abandoned hotel they are staying in that might also 'magically' have running water and electricity. There walked in a tired filthy-looking greenette. Baster and Denki launching themselves at the boy in a tight hug.

"And where the hell have you been?"

Bakugo spoke sternly as the nerd who tried to pry off the two idiots. One with separation anxiety and the other who just wants(izukus)attention. 

"W-well I've been doing my job of looking in both the sides of the heroes and villains."

Izuku said still trying to push the two away. Bakugo glared at the greenette who gave up and walked to the big kitchen with the two still attached to him. Then with Bakugo following close behind, izuku felt nervous.

"Well, then why don't I come with you next mission?"

Katsuki stated smugly. 

"Ooo me too!"

Denki said finally letting go of the greenette.

"And me!"

Baster said still hugging izuku from behind.

"Don't forget me."

Todoroki said with a small smile as he just walked in. Izuku groaned and slumped his way to the somehow still working fridge.

"Look, we left UA and came with you so we could help."

Bakugo said leaning on the side of the fridge izuku was looking into.

"Look Kacchan, I don't want any of you to get hurt. You guys are all I have."

Midoriya said taking a pack of red jello and opening it.

"We can take care of ourselves."

Midoriya rolled his eyes and walked away with a spoon full of jello in his mouth.

"Don't walk away from me!"

Bakugo yelled hitting izukus arm and knocking down his jello. Izuku stared at his jello and looked up at the blonde with a blank stare.

"I'm going to sleep. Good night."

Izuku said softly pushing Baster away and walking out of the kitchen. Bakugo known as one to never give up stomped after him.

"Bakugo, I don't think-"

"DON'T IGNORE ME, YOU DAMN NERD!"

Bakugo yelled, interrupting todoroki as he grabbed midoriyas shoulder with izuku quickly shaking his grip off.

"LEAVE ME ALONE!"

"LEAVE YOU ALONE?! YOUR THE ONE WHO KEEPS LEAVING US!"

Bakugo yelled in annoyance.

"BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU HERE!"

Izuku yelled at the blond in anger and sadness as his eyes started to burn with tears. He wasn't angry at Katsuki or anyone else. He was angry at himself. He hated himself so much that all he could think of was everyone finally leaving him. Leaving him so he could have a chance to properly kill himself. So he won't hurt anyone ever again.

But why does he feel so much guilt and pain when they leave? He wants to die but he doesn't want to hurt anyone. So why does it hurt so much to just sit around and wair for his reason of living?  He doesn't want to wait and hope anymore. He's waited long enough, And now he's done.

If he has to hurt the ones he loves so he can protect them from himself then so be it.

"You don't want us here?"

Baster asked in a soft but hurt voice. Izuku stared at the ground and balled his hands into fists as he bit his lip to stop the tears from falling.

"I don't want you guys to get hurt because of me... So yes, I don't want you here."

He said without stuttering. he looked up and looked at all of their hurt faces. It broke his heart knowing he was the reason for such expressions.

"I... Just go... You can tell the heroes that I threatened you or something. Just go."

Izuku said with his voice cracking.

"Zuku-"

Baster stepped toward the greenette but stopped at the cold empty green eyes that stared at him.

"Go."

Baster faltered and turned around and ran out in tears. Denki sadly looking at izuku but quickly ran after the cat. Todoroki just stared at the greenette with hurt-filled eyes.

"Midoriya I... I want to stay no matter what."

He said quietly trying to reach for the boy but his hand was shoved away.

"I SAID LEAVE!"

Midoriya yelled with a sob. Todoroki looked at the boy and took his hand back with a sad smile. 

"I'll see you later then..."

Then there was bakugo who stayed quiet the whole time. He was glaring down at the ground before finally looking up at the nerd.

"I...We gave up everything for you...."

He said oddly calmly.

"...Then you abandon us because your too selfish to see that you are the one who leaves the people that care about you."

Izuku sucked in a breath at those words and took a small unnoticeable step back. 

"Have a nice life being alone."

The blond spat also leaving and catching up with others.

"I...I am selfish.... Aren't I?"

(Sorry for the angsty chapter!!!! I almost cried making it. lol. Anyway hope you enjoyed!)