The twilight saga: Bella's Swan Diary

chapter 2: the talk

I woke up suddenly terrified by the thought that today I have to talk to mom. To unleash my plans. Finally and oh no, finally. After boring school I was walking slower than I used to. I knew why. But I knew I had to do it. "Put yourself in your mother's shoes. Put yourself in mo......"she said hello Bella, you're late. I think I looked terrified but everything just went out fastly....and I thought I said "hey mom I have this great idea. I think I should move to forks to live with my dad so you can stay with Phil" what I truly said was "I have idea to move to-to-too forks to li-liv-live withou-with my da-dad-Charlie" my mom looked more calm than I thought she would be. She said calmly "what" and waved me over to come sit by. I walked close and as she was about to start. I said that I miss my dad, forks is a wonderful place, though she seemed to be disagreeing with me, I mean I did agree with her-nonetheless-it's perfect choice, you wouldn't have to spend so much money traveling back to me. And I'm sure dad needs company. Mom was stunned but not surprised and spontaneously jumped out of her seat. She ran upstairs and picked the biggest luggage and said that "well girl, then pack". I was surprised she was so okay with this until..."I know you Bella, you dislike that type of weather, you wouldn't even be able to pack. You're just gonna give up." "If I wake up and you're packed I'll let you go, but I'm sure we'll gonna stay, I know you." But she didn't unfortunately, she never actually understood that I cared for people so deeply, that I didn't even consider that I hate everything about forks myself because that's what is best for my mom. And I ran upstairs and started to pack. I struggled what to pack. It's huge difference. It's always rain, cold, a lot of snow. I do not have actually that much warm clothes but I won't go shopping, I just hate it. I immediately looked up at my clock, it was 5 pm, which lucky for me, means that my favorite place of least favorite, thrift shop is open, and I immediately headed to back door, only yelling "mom gotta go buy some gum. See you." While I was walking down the street, luckily that thrift shop was close, only 5 minutes walk. And it was in such remote area, I swear only 2 people would be here, like it's such unknown place, it only added pluses to it. While I was walking Down the street I actually thought about the life I was getting myself into. Everyday being surrounded by trees, rain, thunder, new completely strange people, being such a new to everything. Also new teachers. But everything was dumb, I was really worried for my mother, she needs someone to take care of her and I'm hopeful for Phil, but it's just anxiety. After I walked into thrift shop I picked the first green, grey and cream sweaters that hung by and headed to counter. The shopping lady was such surprised with my odd behavior, in their head I suppose, I seemed odd. I just walked and only took 2 seconds to find the first thing I saw and actually buy it. I didn't care I was here for a reason, not for their opinions, also they wouldn't see me here anymore. Goodbye my thrift shop, you won't or you will be missed. I hate to shop, but this place was my favorite of that category, so I was little bit upset. When I got back home I packed lightly. Packing my favorite little cactus. Now everything in need, I'm gonna miss my messy room, this bathroom. In gonna miss Phoenix. Goodbye old life. I welcome rain and coldness. As much I hate to say it. Welcome forks, Washington. Everywhere on earth would be better than there. As soon I can get out of there, the better. In the morning I called my dad, and he picked sounding delightful, apparently my mom already had called him. And he was so sure that he was so okay with it too. He seemed happy and I was grateful to make more than one person happy. It's such a great feeling. I headed towards downstairs only to see my mother standing to picture with me and herself in forks, I was such a little child there. I liked that picture. We seemed so happy in that moment. I usually got caught up in my thought often by just looking at it. I said mom, are you okay? and all she said was that she cant understand how can I be okay with leaving this place, with leaving her so far away. I only could get back with "mom, it's for the best" "everyone wins, I'll call you every hour, I love you, thank you for being such a wonderful mother but it's time for a change, I can't steal your time with Phil and I cant leave Charlie alone" "he seems so thrilled with this" mom only agreed by nodding her head. It was enough. Deep down she knew it was brilliant idea, but she will miss me. I'll miss her. She's alive spirit, few days will fly by and she will be this reckless and spontaneous again and that made me smile. My mom and I booked my tickets, it was after a week. It was enough. Enough to be okay with this new life, enough to bury my old one, enough to my mom to understand me, to start to live her own life. She gonna be filled with joy soon and I'll be sitting somewhere in quiet corner smiling because I made her happy and that's okay, that's enough for me. Forever will be. Week passed quickly. All I actually did was return my books, teachers seemed to be upset by me leaving since I was decent student here. That warmed my heart a little, how nice of them. And tomorrow was the day. The day this life will my past. How scary, somehow exciting but actually terrifying. I'm gonna miss my mom. I don't have friends so I don't need to say more goodbyes. After a short quick walk to nearby park. I said goodbye under my breath. And looked around to gather this beautiful painting inside my head. It's stunning and i love it here. But forks is what's best for my mom, and her smile is even more beautiful than this painting. So goodbye Phoenix, you will definitely be missed. In the morning I took my luggage and we headed towards airport. I hugged my mom and kissed on her cheek, she smiled with tears in her eyes. As I walked further from her I could actually feel the distance now. I'm leaving my true home, all of this. But her eyes will be filled with tears of joy soon. I reminded myself. And now I stepped in. Goodbye Phoenix, goodbye mother, goodbye warm. And I was crying now, I miss this already and I'm not even in forks. Mom I reminded myself again, my tears stopped quickly. Her before me always.