WISH I HADN'T MET YOU

Chapter 2

So yes, they finally confessed to each other! Yayy!! And I'm so happy for them..im...what am I trying to pull, it's you, my taejournal, you knew everything from the start, how am I supposed to be happy? But I love Tessa! She's such a great friend and how can I even start to hate her for that..I wish he liked some rude ass one, so that I could hate in peace... Who am I kidding, this is my life, it can only be worse -_-..I have to stop loving him.I just have to find a way.

You kept wondering staring at the ceiling not knowing that your pen had dropped from your hands or that your eyes had flooded with tears rolling down to your ears now.

It was just last week when Tessa came up to you saying 'dudddeeee have you seen that guy, omg, that guy who used to be an outcast? from Korea, is he?he has had such a glow up rightt?'

You couldn't stop blushing at just the mention of him, but hey, he was always cute, you knew it well than anyone else. Preventing your cheeks from getting flushed any further you said to her 'yeah, I guess so..'
'Woah is that 'The Y/n' agreeing to what I just said? Gwaaaddd. My eyes!my eyes!' Tessa was this beautiful bright girl whom anybody would fall for, and you were that 'would've-been-an-outcast-if-it-wasn't-for-her'. You still remember how she had held your hand when you most needed it and never left until now. And you'd do anything for her, be it losing your hardcore crush to her..though it wasn't as easy as it sounded.
' And I heard you were in his project group this time?' She asked curiously biting her lips.

Oh, how you had jumped with all the excitement in the world when you got the news about it a few days back. You had also noted down his phone number while everyone exchanged theirs for the project and you couldn't stop blushing at his number on YOUR PHONE! You had kept enjoying him narrate and discuss and lead the group with his deep-like-ocean kind of voice and his pretty eyes which was also deep, his hair falling on his brows through his fingers while he brushed them when he got confused.

All week, he didn't even acknowledge your presence, even as a group member, but you hadn't felt bad, never in those years to be honest, because you knew the back story to it. Only you knew. But unlike everyone else who liked him, you never lost your cover, you always kept a straight face and kept it hidden smartly.

Oh no y/n you're zoning out again, wake up!

'Can you stop doing that? I know you aren't from this planet, but just don't do your alien telepathy thing now when I'm asking something important bish!'Tessa had to wake you up like always.
'Uh-sorry, w-what was it again?' You were back to reality stuttering.

' The guy, do you happened to have his number? I kinda like him, and I think I should ask him out' those words had already formed into sentences and jumped out of her mouth drilling your ears straight into your heart stabbing right at it. Your heart stopped beating for a second and you had to hold yourself from zoning out again.

You had no idea about what you were supposed to do, you liked him, for a long time, and now your best friend wanna ask him out on a date, you've always admired how straightforward Tessa was and almost everyday wished that you could be like her.

But this...this was something else, and now you had to give the number you waited for ages to get and have been treasuring all this while. What if you said you liked him too? Not just for days? not after he had his glow up or whatever they say? How selfish can you be, after everything she did for you. So that wasn't an option for you, considering the low self esteem you had. And you still had hope since you knew how Taehyung had always set his boundaries straight.

'Uh- Tessa... Uhmm..yeah for sure, why not' your hands shakily forwarded his number to Tessa while your heart was torn into pieces.

By hearing the loud noises and laughter you knew who was in the class now, this happens when you're into someone for more than you know, you get to feel their presence sometimes.
'Hey, thank you, baby, God, he's here!' she kissed you tightly on your cheeks and swooned looking at him who hadn't spared his glance to anyone other than his friends.
'The bell is out, so I think I'll go now, just take care of my baby aight' she winked at you and left admiring Taehyung.

You sat in your group, but you somehow felt dizzy and not so well processing so much stuff all at once. And you slowly dozed off not even acknowledging his presence for the first time in years while tears rolled down your cheeks.

Clearing his throat, side glancing at you, Taehyung asked the  other members pointing towards you 'Is she alright?'

You would've yelled out of joy if it was any other day, but unfortunately it wasn't such a day.