|| Rudy Pankow Imagines ||

Beautiful

Requested by: ahugedissappointment
(I'm so sorry it took so long!)

I watched from afar as Rudy smiled at the brunette girl known as Elaine. He was grinning ear to ear as she talked. Looking at her like she was the most beautiful thing in the world. He was supposed to look at me that way. I was his girlfriend after all.

No wonder he was flirting with Elaine. She was way prettier than me. She didn't even have to try. Her hair was perfect. Her eyes were perfect. The bridge of her nose and her lips were perfect. She was the complete package.

I was jealous of her. She made me feel insecure in every way and I hated it. I hated how she caught Rudy's attention as soon as we walked into the room. How he'd talked to her instead of me. I began to think we were drifting apart cause he was falling for Elaine. That made me worry. I was in love with Rudy. So in love, I don't know what I would do without him. I wouldn't ever be able to fall in love with anyone else if he left me. I wouldn't be able to do the things I love without thinking about him.

I looked at Elaine's body and then at mine. She had flawless hips and a skinny waist and then.....there was me. I didn't have a skinny waist or perfect hips and thighs.

Why was Rudy even with me? Why didn't he find someone who was actually pretty? Like Elaine.

I continued to watch from across the room as Rudy talked to Elaine both of them giggling and laughing together. Finally, Rudy glanced at me and caught me staring. He winked at me before tapping his thigh, motioning for me to come to sit on his lap. I hesitated before shaking my head and mouthing "I'm good"

There was no use. He was just gonna continue to talk to Elaine.

Rudy furrowed his eyebrows, looking at me confused before Elaine tapped his shoulder, getting his attention again. He didn't even look my way after that.

I sighed as I stood up from my seat and walked over to the bar to get me a drink.

All the cast members and I had come to a club just to get out of our apartments for once. It was supposed to be fun but until I found out that Elaine was tagging along I just felt like going home and wrapping up in my blankets and crying myself to sleep.

I got myself a glass of tequila and downed it quickly. I wasn't planning on getting drunk but it just might happen with the way I was feeling. I just wanted to forget that I was ugly and that my boyfriend was probably gonna ditch me for another girl.

Suddenly, I felt a pair of arms slither around my shoulders. I recognized the many rings on the veiny hands. It was Rudy.

"Getting drunk, already?" his raspy voice mumbled, kissing below my earlobe.

"Mhmm" I hummed, pushing his arms off me as the bartender slid me another drink.

"What was that about?" Rudy's huffed, sitting on the barstool beside me referred to how I pushed him off.

"What?" I asked playing innocent.

"First you don't wanna sit on my lap and then you push me off you. What going on?" Rudy implored, shifting so his elbow was against the counter and he rested his head in his hand so he could look at me better.

"Well, what was the about?" I pointed over to where Elaine sat across the room as I took a sip of my drink. I refused to look at him.

"Wait what?" He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion like he had no idea that he was flirting with her.

"You know what I'm talking about, Rudy" I shrugged, standing from my seat to leave but he grabbed my wrist before I could.

"No, I actually don't know what you're talking-"

"Oh, don't give me that bullshit!" I raised my voice, cutting him off as I pulled my hand out of his grip. I felt eyes land on me as the room became quieter so I lowered my voice, trying not to draw attention to myself.

"You've been flirting with Elaine all night. You haven't even talked to me. I know she's prettier and I know you liked her more than me but you didn't have to flirt with her right in my face" my voice ended in a whine as I sat down my glass and marched away.

I heard Rudy yelled after me as I hurried out the doors and onto the street.

"Y/n! Y/n come back!" Rudy shouted as I began running down the sidewalk, dodging all the people in my way. I heard the sound of running shoes hitting the pavement right behind me before my arm was jerked backward.

"Leave me alone, Rudy!" I begged, pushing his chest as he wrapped his arms around me holding me tightly. He knew that always calmed me down and made me loosen up but I was still mad.

"Look, baby" Rudy cooed, grabbing my face to make me look at him. "I love you. I really fucking do, okay? You're the most beautiful thing I've ever laid eyes on. Way more beautiful than Elaine, alright? She's nothing compared to you, darling. And I'm sorry I didn't talk to you. I was just trying to make small talk and then she wouldn't shut up and let me go so I had to use my acting skills to act like I was enjoying her company cause you know I'm not a rude person"

I giggled at his last sentence before shaking my head. "I'm not beautiful, Rudy. Look at me"

His eyes trailed down my body and then back up. "I don't know what you're talking about. Every part of you is perfect and that's why I love you" he shrugged, placing a small kiss on my lips.

I couldn't help but smile. This was why I loved him. He always reassured me and made me feel good when I knew good well I wasn't pretty.

A/n:
Sorry this wasn't that good tbh.

Slightly edited
Word count: 1043