"you know i don't love you, right?" - wilhemina venable

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Quick note: don't worry, their relationship is going to get healthier.

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"y/n?" she whispered, eyes piercing daggers into the ceiling. Her hands rested firmly on my back, holding me against her.

"Yes?" I replied, my head still resting against her warm chest.

"You know I don't love you, right?"

I knew. Of course I knew. Ms Venable couldn't love anyone. Hell, she could barely love herself, let alone me. But hearing it coming from her burned gaping wounds into my chest. The lack of emotion in her voice almost made me get up and leave, but I couldn't. She wouldn't want me to. It was cold. She got cold during these nights, when even the fire couldn't heat up the room enough for her. I didn't want her to be cold. I'd have died of hypothermia before she even experienced a shiver if I could.

"Of course," I managed to reply, somehow keeping my composure. "Of course I know that."

"And you know I'm just using you for sex, yes?"

I nodded.

"So why are you letting me?"

I knew a confession wouldn't change anything between us. It wouldn't make her uncomfortable. She already knew how I felt. She knew how much she meant to me. She just didn't care.

"Because I love you too much to deprive you of anything, no matter how trivial."

"Why?"

"I don't know." I twisted a lock of her dark hair between my fingers. "I wish I never fell in love with you, Wilhemina, but here we are. here I am," I corrected. I was touch-starved in this place. lucky, and I suppose unlucky, for me, so was Ms Venable. She found me interesting, interesting enough to break her own rules. Despite the immense pain that came with all the pleasure, I deemed it worth it, because I wouldn't dream of trading an ounce of her happiness for all the love in the world. I went into this having the same intentions as she, though only one of us remained that way.

"So... you torture yourself with this notion, knowing these feelings you have for me, they'll never be returned?"

"Yes."

She scoffed. "I almost pity you, y/n."

"I know. Still, I'd do anything for you."

"I see." She pulled me in a bit tighter. "Goodnight,
y/n."

"Goodnight, Wilhemina."

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