"Why don't you just send a picture. I want to see your body. Please, trust me". I wasn't ready to share my body with someone else. "I never even had my first kiss. I'm fat and insecure," I said to myself sending nudes was not of my character.
"SENDS...
"BULLSHIT, WHY WOULD YOU EVEN ASK ME SUCH A DUMB QUESTION. YOU KNOW I'M NOT THE ROMANTIC TYPE."
"WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH TREATING ME RIGHT AND JUST BEING THERE FOR ME."
"GET OUT OF MY HOUSE"
*SLAMS DOOR*
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Tamia (POV)
*FLASHBACK*
I remembered the day as if it were yesterday; it all began when he messaged me on Facebook and I ignored him for months. I didn't care about anyone at the moment and simply wanted to be alone. I'm not sure what persuaded me, but I responded to him, hoping he wouldn't reply, but he did. I convinced myself that I should give him a chance because he could be the one. As I reflect back on how he treated me, I realize how fantastic he was. He made me feel special like if I was someone he would marry one day. I was treated with respect and given all his attention. He listened to me in a way that made me feel like my heart was in the right place. I miss those days when we could speak all night on the phone about our future plans, discuss trips, and imagine each other's reactions when we actually meet. I wish things were the same, but we have different preferences. He's not willing to let me go, and I'm not letting him go.
*PRESENT*
Kelvin and I had a large argument, and he stopped contacting me, refusing to take my calls, and may have even blocked me. He got furious with me since all I asked for was his time and attention, but he was preoccupied with something else or should I say someone else. We've been fighting a lot lately. I wondered to myself if I was ever enough for him. The way he yelled and became angry at me makes me fear that he may hit me one day. Hope he'd simply talk to me; I didn't intend to kick him out of my house. My rage had gotten the best of me, I suppose. Deep down inside I really miss my nigga wonder if he misses me too.
My best friend Autumn attempted to convince me to leave the house; she has always been the one to make things better. She has been my best friend since high school, she is 5'6", with dark skin, thick hair, and beautiful natural curls. She's also wild, and fun, and she'll get what she wants no matter the price. I adore Autumn, although she occasionally goes overboard for me; yet, I appreciate her and she is always there for me. I was pretty upset when KJ left, but "Fuck it," I need to get out of the house and clear my thoughts.
Picture of Autumn
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This chapter might be a little shorter, but what do you think of Tamia?
