Feelings

CHAPTER 1

I never taught about girls. I didn't even realized I liked them until I meet her, Arizona Robbins, she's the chief of peeds. She is sweet, funny and also the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. Her smile makes my heart go extremely fast and I can stop smiling when she is around. But she will never look at me that way, or that was what I taught...

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I was looking for Arizona, we have that patient together, a 7 year old kid with a brain tumour . I enter to the room and she was talking to the parents, I smiled and she turn around and looked me directly at the eyes, she is so beautiful.

–Hi Amelia – she walks until we are in front of each other and says – I was talking to the parents about the surgery .

I couldn't stop looking at her eyes

– Umm, oh okay – my heart was beating so fast and I was sweting but I went talk calmly to the parents and I explained to them how we will do the surgery and I also explained the risks to them.

I was already scrubbing when she walked in

– Hi – she said with a smile

– hi – I answered her.

The next thing, silence. We were like this until I almost had removed all the tumour. Then she asked that question and my heart stops.

–So do you like girls? – I stopped breading I wanted to look at her but I had to remove all the tumour first, I didn't wanted to kill that girl. Before I could answer she started talking again – I heard you liked Carina Deluca – oh I almost forgot I had a thing for her but I got pregnant and nothing happened. I thing I just needed something to forgot Arizona because she was in New York, but she is here now so.

– Oh yes – I laugh – that was a long time ago – I said

– She is beautiful – se said. Arizona and carina had a thing but I never knew what exactly was.

– Yes – I said shyly. But you are more, I wanted to say it but it wasn't the moment.

The day was finally finishing, I did a couple of surgeries more after that one with Arizona. I was tired so I went to the specialists room to get my things and go home but there she was, sitting on the sofa. I walked to her and I asked if she was okay

- Yes don't worry – she said looking at me, but her eyes were red, I knew she had been crying.

- You can trust me – I said trying to help her, we were friends after all.

- Do you want to go to Joe's?- she said trying to smile.

I looked down, I didn't wanted to say no to her but I can't drink, I was a druggaddit. It seemed like she was reading my mind

-Oh I'm so-sorry , I d-didn't wanted to say it. I j-just remembered – she seemed to worried I am sure she was thinking what to say to fix this combersation

-Don't worry – I said smiling – You can come to my house if you want.

-It's not necessary I don't want to bother you.

-Don't worry, come on.

There we were sitting on the floor of my room with popcorn and chocolate, I was tired but I didn't wanted to sleep. We talked a lot, she told me everything that happened in New York with Callie and I told her how things end up between me and Link We are friends now but when we were in a relationship, it didn't work- I said referring to Link. And after a lot of laughs and histories, it happened. We were looking at each other eyes and then I felt her lips on mine. I t felt so OK. When I felt her tongue on my mouth I putted my hand on her face taking her closer to me. It was magical until she got up and said: -U- Um-, It's late, I- I- I have to go- And then she left nervous. –SHIT- I yelled, did I ruin it all? I lied into my bed and I revived that kiss until I felt asleep.