Feelings

CHAPTER 4

Arizona's perspective

Since that day I was avoiding Amelia. That kiss light some feelings and I was afraid. I saw she texted me but when she realizes I wouldn't answer she stopped.

· · · · · ·

I was checking some blood results when April appeared. She seemed angry, happy and confused at the same time. She pulled my arm and she dragged me to the stuff room, she closed and said almost screaming

- You kissed Amelia Shepherd!? OMG! Why you didn't tell me?- she was so exited and I was confused.

- Wha- How do you know it?

- So its true? Now you have to tell me. How do it was?

- Magical- I said looking at her- I mean of course it was good but I don't know there was something more.

- So why are you avoiding her?

- I don't know. That kiss was special and it maybe light some feelings but I don't know how to describe them- I didn't know how to follow- It's the only solution I though. I'm not sure. Can we talk about an other thing?- I didn't want to give that so much importance but then she hit me.- Auch. What was that about?

- Arizona Robbins are you dumb or just blond?- I was surprised I didn't knew what was going on- You have feeling so you avoid her? How does that make sence?

- I don't know- I said touching the part where she hit me- It's not that important.

- It's not that important!- her eyes were opened like they would fall on any moment- It's Amelia. Now what? You are going to tell me you didn't realized the way that she look at you?

- Wha- What?- I was confused

- Okay, you are dumb- she rolled her eyes- She likes you

- No, that's stupid

- Yes

- Yes?

- You have fellings, she likes you so..._ she was wating for me to follow the sentence

- I'm not sure about my feelings, and now... If what you said is true I don't want to hurt her.

Someone paged her

- I have to go

I stayed a minute more in the room after she left. I was thinking about what she said. Then I decided to get out so I took the elevator. I didn't knew were I was going because I was lost in my thaughts but then it all disappeared when the doors opened and I saw Amelia. She just had a surgery because she was wearing her scrub cap. Her eyes were sad but beautiful you can just stay all day looking at that blue. Derek's were exacly the same.

I realized we were looking at eachother and I looked down. She entered.

- hi – she said

- hi

Okay that wasn't the best situation to be. Then she broke the silence:

- Did I do something wrong?- I looked at her, she was nervous- I mean we were okay and then that happened, the kiss, maybe you don't remember but I do. And we are not longer friends?

I was confused and assimilating all that

- So you are not talking to me? Okay- She was mad and disappointed

- Oh no – I said realizing what was happening- I mean yes, we are friends. I just.. I didn't knew what to say- I admit

- You don't have to say anything. We can just don't give it so much importance- She said with a forced smile.

- So we are friends?- I said looking at her eyes

- Always- now her smile was real and it made me laugh.

The doors opened and we walk away, each other on the opposite direction

· · · · · ·

The next days passed like always. I told April everything and I started realizing what my feelings were. I was falling in love. How I knew it? Wells since that conversation in the elevator every time she walked in the room or talked to me my heart started beating fast, my brain didn't knew how to put the words in order and I couldn't stop looking very detail of her: her wild hair, her perfect smile, her blue eyes, her magic voice and her perfect body. Okay this sound weird but I only felt one thing that strong for someone and it was with Callie. I was afraid but I wanted to kiss her every time and tell her all she provoked on me but then I remembered that conversation and what she said. We are friends.