If i do repeat things then sorry i have shit memory also have large issues with spelling ( I could not even spell orange right so sad).
I commonly experience I believe its called Gender dysphoria(?), everywhere I am including my home I'll become very angered and anxious about my body, mainly upper body. Almost everytime I shower theres a mirror somewhere and I take a look at myself and see how ugly I truly am beneath all the cloths. I just get so mad and start to punch my upper body parts or bite down hard on a limb. It just brings me so much pain to even look at my own face. I just really hate having to deal with what my birth gender gave me. (Other women dont mean to be rude)
I never really take care of my own body, from showering, periods , brushing teeth, and just washing my own face. I also sometimes forget to eat or drink anything for a day.
I sometimes act somewhat like another organism like a wolf, large cat, or dinosaur like walking around. This leads to me biting, growling, moving ,laying ,sleeping around differently. Sometimes I growl and bite myself on the arm or upper body parts plus my legs. Im like only 12 right now im super confused about my behavior but it just comes naturally for me.
It happens alot when im stressed or anxious but sometimes just out of nowhere. Idk if im a pet regressor tbh.
I just lose the thoughts of being a human and start to act and move like a wolf. Very energetic and chase after my cat trying to catch her. This always happens either at night when everyone is asleep or when im home alone which is a few days a week or so.
Most times when my hand or arm come into contact with my upper body I just start to bare my teeth and bite down hard onto my hand or start to punch the upper body parts- im honestly very confused but not worried. Its like im not even the owner of this body when it happens-. It also happens when any of my arms/ hands are in contact with any of my body and stuff.
Its not always just most of the time. Im just so damn uncomfortable with my body.
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RandomMe just talking about my life and stuff just to get it out with, its not a bad life compared to others. This is basically just for me to write my days in.. Comment,read, do anything. Bring me hate or love idc in this journal.
