13th regression

Hospital 4

He doesn't hate his team, he doesn't hate Kakashi, he doesn't hate Sakura and he doesn't really hate Sasuke but he does however, hate team 7.

He'll never find it in him to forgive Hiruzen nor Jiraya.

He still can't forgive Kakashi nor Tsunade either.
They lied to his face looking straight in the eyes.

He doesn't hate Konoha, but he still can't love it the way his first life and especially the child of that life loved it.

He doesn't want to try.

He knows he'll be let down.

He knows he'll be disappointed.

He has had enough of it all.

He doesn't hate and he doesn't love.

He still can't forgive, not entirely because they hid the truth and lied, but because he loved and trusted, blindly and unconditionally, in them.

And They betrayed him.

They never properly apologized.

They never even bothered enough to apologize in the first place.

How shameless.

Somehow still, his subconscious still regard them as precious.

He isn't quite sure how to feel about that and what does it make of him.

He no longer love them, but he doesn't hate them, everyone is in neutral grounds and all but equal till they prove themselves worthy to his now apathetic and shattered heart.

Perhaps the reason he loved his cousin Karin so much (aside from her being one of the only family members he has left in the world) was how uninvolved she was in everything that has happened to him.

How she loved, trusted and believed in him wholeheartedly.

Never questioning anything, waiting for him to tell her when he was ready and even when he didn't, she never once doubted his sincerity towards her.

She never doubted him.

Always by his side.

She believed him when he revealed his regressions to her, each and every time.

Eventually he found away to give her her memories.

He no longer hate Konoha nor its people.
He had and got tired of it.

The only living person in the world he'll always love however is his cousin, his family, his Karin.

Hinata as well.

His first real love.

His first lover.

His first wife.

The one who healed his empty heart and filled it with love and the one who gave him a family.

The first person to see him and love him as he is.

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It took annoyingly five hours for him to be left alone, refusing every three seconds Jiraya's offers to go with him on that useless training trip for Tsunade to finally  have enough and punch him so hard that he's probably outside Konoha's walls now.

He loves it when she do that to someone else (mainly Jiraya).

If Jiraya's a Masochist then that's on him.

And since he's a girl now he wants to be a pretty one with beautiful long shiny knee length hair like his mother.

And since it's not cross dressing he'd like tight short and sexy clothes while at it.

Does he need make up? He's 13 so probably not.

He knows most girly stuff thanks to his wife and lovers but he'll need to talk with Ino or Hinata about it.

Ino is more likely to take him shopping and gives him a makeover, it's her fort.

This is not half bad.

It could be fun.

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It was a pleasant recovery week, if one would ignore Jiraya's attempts and Tsunade's weird stares.

The hospital's awful food cannot be forgotten.

He got time to collect his scattered thoughts and memories to make a mental list of his future actions.

He'll need to move into the Uzumaki estate since it has an underground training facility and it's location is far from civilization.
For training purposes and mental peace.

Helping the Kurama's clan heiress, Yakumo chan, Saving his darling cousin and training them both so that way he get a trusted team and his moral support back.

He's not exactly in bright place.

He also wants to get in a girl character soon.

And he'll have to raise in ranks soon.

Did he mention how he hates being genuine?

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Kakashi and Sakura never visited.

Kakashi took a long term mission that would last him three months outside of Konoha, was what Tsunade told him, from her chakra he knows she was being truthful.

Karin sensory lessons are the best!

Sakura didn't bother showing up, she seems to be training but not under Tsunade in iryo ninjutsu.

He wonders why.

Did she not ask for an apprenticeship? Or did she and Tsunade and Shizune refuse??

But if Sakura isn't training under Tsunade what would Sakura be like in the future? Would she also focus on Taijutsu but not monstrous mountain one punch breaking style? Maybe Genjutsu because of her chakra control? What about iryo ninjutsu??

She's training under Anko. Apparently.

His sweet lovely psycho older sister figure Anko.

F**k!

Whatever, none of his business. Although he will remove her hebi chan hickey in year or so, once he has made a show of being interested in fuuinjutsu and some kind of genius, which he actually is -thank you very much- and that amazed and delighted him immensely when he found himself a natural in his clan's speciality.

He's glad that Sakura is finally working on improving herself, he always thought she's very talented with plenty of regrettably wasted potential.

She's smart with amazing chakra control and near photographic memory.
Her weak physique and low reserves are only temporary.
While she won't get, say, Uzumaki chakra reserves, she can definitely get a bigger and more refined one.

Perhaps she'll specialize in poison and genjutsu,with some elemental ninjutsu and better taijutsu?

Who knows? But she'll probably excel, she can't afford not to if now she has to bring her beloved Sasuke on her own now.

Again, not his problem.

He has enough on his plate and the the chunin exams are in three months in February, better pull a Gai and Lee with Uzumaki seals flavor, get his physique back and get it over with.

Haa... too much work for future Naru chan it seems.
Poor her.