Princess
I just got done, from taking a nap. I didn't get no sleep last night because, both babies decided to cry for eating, and diaper changes. Jayceon went back to sleep midnight. Kia'lani wasn't haven't that I had to hold her close just walking around the house for three complete hours till Kia, decided to join her older brother in dream land. Of course I got in bed and, automatically went to sleep.
I'm up now, I look in my night stand to find my new journal I grab a black inky pin.
June 3
Hi Jayceon and Kia'lani, my name is Princess and, I'm you're mommy. You both were born on June 2nd. Jaeycon you are the oldest just in case you both argue about that lol. You both will always be my babies no matter what we go through, we might fight, disagree and much more but, I'll always love you even when you think I don't. When I was eight weeks pregnant I couldn't believe you guys were in my tummy with heartbeats that matched mines ❤️ I already knew that you guys were and are going to be so special. You guys are like day and night, fire and water or the son and the stars. Lol I'm corny. I always wanted you both and finally after many years I got my babies. Here is something I thought about and, decided why not.
If I have son
I'll teach him how to be a man
When I have a son I want him to know that he is pure as gold
If I have a son I want him to know that he his strong
I know him being a man that he will never be safe
I just hope I'll never have to pray when you walk out my door
If I have a son I wanna see him shine like gold
You're heart beats with the love like mines
I wanna know when you stop for just snack you come home
I wanna know when you take off bullets won't pierce through you're soul
I wanna know when you you succeed they don't end you before you can make the world as gold just like you
I wanna know you can play with out someone taking ur life
I pray I don't have to see the day when you cry for me when I'm gone
I don't wanna see you fall in this world so, mama going to hold you like it's my life
Just remember your pure as gold
My son just know you a child of the lord so what they ever do or say you got the blood of Jesus
-To Jayceon, from Mommy
Baby you got a soul of a lion
Set yourself free
Let em know you the queen of ur soul
You got a tribe cause you take the lead
Set your self free
Show em you can lead
You got a soul of a lion
Roar when you need to feast
Keep on ur feet you never know who trying to take you away from me
You got a soul of lion
Keep those eyes open but, keep that roar low
Show em a lioness can run the world
On her own feet
You got a lion soul so lead
Lead em like you the queen
Just remember mama is the queen of the sea
To Kia'lani
From mommy
Sincerely Mom❤️
I close the book with a smile this is my story so, when they older they can read the journal.
A/N : I know it's short but, please remember that this is Princess, during her pain and, sometimes she will write in her journal for her kids to understand her life, the world but, she will also add more than that. while you read on we will see more of what happens to her during her pain
🥰Till Next Time🥰
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