A Blooming Flower

Daddy

A/N: This chapter includes "Little Space" experiences.

Little space is a delicate part of some subs state of being and is often not a sexual aspect.

I want to explicitly state that Jason would never 'touch' Lily when she regressed into this state because it is a safe space and therefore a nonsexual dynamic in their relationship. If you don't understand what Little Space is, I'm happy to answer any questions about it. All I ask is as a reader you are respectful of my choice to use it.

The main thing to understand though is that physical age is irrelevant to a person's little age. Whether sixteen or sixty-six a person can regress into little space and shouldn't be ashamed of that 👏

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Lily

I knew I was being childish but he was treating me like one.

I felt the sting on my fingers as I slammed the passenger door shut before swinging my backpack over my shoulder. I'd never been angry at him before. I didn't know I could be when it came to him. Yet here I was marching my way over to Ellie feeling like a grumpy toddler who Daddy just told 'no' for the first time. I'm pathetic.

I know how ridiculous this whole thing is. I'm not supposed to want the man that once handwashed my hello-kitty underwear after I dropped an entire bottle of blackcurrant juice down myself when I was eight, but I do.

I just never thought the man that once explained the birds and the bees to me after I found out Ellie was getting a little brother, would want me too! But he does, Mr D wants me but won't take me? Because I don't understand my own choices?

How else am I supposed to react to that other than rejected. Maybe he's right. Maybe I don't understand, but he's to blame.

"Hey!" Ellie obliviously smiled at me. I tried to hide my frustration behind a smile but as expected I failed and Ellie's excited expression turned into a serious one. "Look Lil, I'm sorry for what happened with Liam, OK?" she began and I noticed my phone buzz in my pocket.

I pulled it out to see a text from Mr D. As I read the words on the partially concealed screen, Ellie continued "I didn't think you'd be so distraught. Liam's a hottie and Olly said he thought you were cute when he saw you at the party the other night. I thought maybe you'd finally be interested in dating now you're...".

My mind wandered off as she kept up her longwinded speech about my age and lack of experience. She included the subject of how I was almost eighteen but hadn't been kissed yet and how if I wanted to be I'd need to be open to the idea of a boyfriend.

The truth was that I had been kissed though. She just couldn't know that, because the man that kissed me was her father. My first kiss was shrouded in infidelity, but somehow it was still better than I had ever imagined it would be.

It was ironic that in a roundabout way Ellie had gotten what she wanted already. As stupid as it sounds I might even be slightly grateful for her ignorance. Without it, Mr D would never have kissed me. Would he? I questioned that thought to myself as I stared at the words on my phone, frowning.

'Don't sulk, otherwise I won't let you stay over tonight'.

As if after what he just said he was still trying to scold me. What happened to not punishing me? He's being cruel. There's no way I was going to stop sulking now.