Too Young?

I dont think I can do this.

Harry's p.o.v
"I don't think I can do this." I breath sitting in my car.

I can't stand there knowing Katie isn't coming back. Knowing she won't be there telling me everything is okay. I can't walk in there and see her lifeless body sitting in the casket.

I want her to be here. I don't want to cry over not having her in my arms. She wasn't supposed to leave me like that. She was so young and beautiful and happy, even when she knew she was sick. I watch as Jake and Max make their way out of the church crying and I burst out sobbing myself.

Katie would want me to be strong and go in there. I have to do it for her.

I get out of the car and make my way towards the church. Max and Jake hug me. I walk inside and everyone turns towards me. I could see all the sorrow in their eyes as they looked at me. I took a seat up at the front and could see Katie. I closed my eyes and sat my head in my hands.

"Harry? Would you like to close?" Katie's brother asked stepping off the stand.

I nodded and stood up. I walked over and could see her. I stared and walked over. I caressed her face and leaned forward to hug her. I cried and pulled away. I stepped up to the stand and took a deep breath.

"Katie Ryan. She was the best thing that's ever happened to me. She was the highlight to my life. Yes, I met her as her teacher. But once I made eye contact, I knew we were supposed to be together. She was always happy and when she wasn't it was only because she was upset. She was a very great runner during gym. She told me she loved me before I could tell her. I wasn't quiet sure I wanted to be in love because I was scared. But I luckily knew I really loved her. She was too young to leave. She was too happy and loving. We have been through rough patches but we were never able to stay apart for long. I was with her when she passed. She was laying with me and when I woke up she wouldn't. She left loved and happy. I wanted to marry her and spend the rest of our lives together. I wanted to have kids with her. I will never be able to forget about her but I promised her something. I promised her I will move on and love someone else. I told I couldn't but she told me she wants me to be happy and not mope around. I remember the night before she passed I braided her hair and shocker her, it was nice to see her smile. It was even better when it was her birthday and I got her cake and flowers. Her face lit up. I love you more than anything Kate." I finished and covered my face with my hands.

I hurried off the stand and out of the church to my car. I quickly drove to the closest bar. I took a seat at the bar and ordered multiple shots. I quickly drowned them and put my face in my hands.

God Katie, What am I gonna do now that your gone?