Restricted Memories - SKZ School AU

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TW WARNING: INSECURITIES

"Feeling like you're not enough to society or to your friends or family"

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And for those that have insecurities, remember, they can also be beautiful. Love yourself. <3

I woke up early, as I turned around in my bed. The pure beauty of Hyunjin's face appeared through my screen, as he snored slightly. A few strands of his hair fell on his face.

You're so cute, Hyunjin.

I got up, and placed my phone to charge, as I sat on my chair, gawking at last night's chemistry notes. Sometimes, I hate myself for working so hard. I want to relax myself, I want to have fun, but something in me just pulls me away. It's like I'm never enough to fit in. I'm never the same level as them.

There's always something about me that just doesn't match as them.

Is it because I have a disease in myself?

Is it because of that accident?

Is it because I'm different?

My eyes started getting watery, the soft sniffing in the empty room, echoed in Hyunjin's ear.

Hyunjin's POV

I let out a little groan as Kkami trotted over in my bed, wanting the head pats and cuddles every morning like a prince. I shifted silently as I saw Jiwon balled up in her chair, sniffing. Her knees were in a bundle with her arms, as she sobbed silently.

"Jiwon?" I choked out.

She quickly wiped her tears, as she put down her legs, grabbing her phone.

"Oh hey, good morning Jinnie..."

"Is something wrong?" I asked.

"...Nothing."

"I'm okay." She looks up at me with a cheerful smile.

"Are you sure?" I asked again.

"Yes." She said.

Although it sounded stern, her voice still cracked a little in the end. I shouldn't ask again, that wouldn't be polite anymore.

"Why are you doing chemistry homework right now? I thought those were due next two weeks?"

"Oh....um...I just wanted to be productive, you know?"

"Being productive is always a great thing. But you know, what else is also good?" I asked, a smile lurking up from the corner of my mouth.

"What?" She asked with a small chuckle.

"Telling me morning rants. Hyunjin at your service, baby." She laughed at my words, as she fixed her hair.

"Are you ready to listen?"

"Yes."

I stared at my phone as I listened to Jiwon silently. She's beautiful. A different type of beauty. It's a different type of memorizing eyes, that I can stare at forever. I was half listening to her rant as Kkami snuggled into my arms.

Her insecurities. Her insecurities make her pretty. Her insecurities stand out to me.

Her insecurities are what make me go crazy for her.