Bubble gum <3 (a lesbian hisoillu love story)

•5 i will wait

My heart hurt as I saw the long black haired Illumi walk out of my room. I already miss her. I want her so bad.. her long black hair and deep black eyes that I could get lost in forever. The quiet scent of flowers that wasn't too strong but just right.. "I'm in love with you Illumi." I really hope your okay right now my love. I hate to see you depart so soon. I hope you return so I can have you next to me again.
{Illumi} ⚫️➖⚫️
Night had fallen again and it's cool breath hit my neck. I could hear each foot step I took each one pulling my closer to the house I hated to very much. I knew that my heart loved hisoka but my brain couldn't comprehend those feelings because of my upbringing and my dumbass parents.
My body was still being hugged by the soft fabric that I had stolen from Hisoka. The hoodie smelt amazing. Sweet bubblegum the smell that would soon be in my life forever.
I walked up into my room. I could feel the tears starting to pool up into my eyes. I felt all the pain that was held up for so many years that was inflicted by my family. The pain, the torture that my family infected into my body.
I decided that releasing my emotions in the shower would be better, if any of my family heard me crying I would be beaten again. I grabbed a pair of shorts and underwear and I walked into the bathroom. I pulled the shower handle to the cold side and I undressed. I nearly folded my clothes on the sink including Hisoka's hoodie. I stepped in and my head was pounding from the tears that rolled like a waterfall. The tears still streamed down my face but were quickly washed down from the chilling water. My body shivering from the chilling water that ran down my body.
I was finishing up washing my hair when my eyes pulled me over to the razor that was sitting on the shower shelf. My body was compelled to hurt myself.. this felt as the only way to release all the built up pain and the burning emptiness that I felt. I was missing something but I didn't know what.
I picked up the razor and I slid it across my arms, thighs and stomach. The cold water washed away the blood that was now oozing from all over my pale skin.
It hurt to move any part of my body now and clothes were even worse than that. It had now been 2 days and me and Hisoka hadn't talked at all. I felt bad but she was respectful of my wishes. I still hadn't taken off her hoodie unless I had too. I haven't left my room either. I would sneak down at night to steal food but other than that I hated leaving my room because of my parents.
My mother had tried getting into my room multiple times to discuss marriage but I made sure to keep my door locked. Atleast I thought I did... it was around 9 pm when I saw my door opened and my mother and father walked in with a strange boy. "Illumi. We are tired of waiting on you. This is going to be your husband and there is nothing you can do about it." My mother's voice haunted the room and they walked out except for the boy who went and sat on my bed. I looked over at him and I felt a buzz in my pocket and I pulled it out. "Who is it?" He said. That's none of your business. Isn't it? No. No it's not so shut up. I then read the next message to see "Hey Illumi. I want to let you know how much I love you. {from Hisoka} my heart fluttered and I knew exactly what I was to do next to escape this hell.
"Hey Illumi?" The boy said shyly. What. "May I shower?" Sure idc go ahead. This was my opportunity and I quickly got up as soon as he was in the bathroom and I started packing a bag with the few things I needed and I booked it to my window. I slid the latch up and I jumped down. I ran as fast as light to the nearby woods and I began to walk to where I knew I belonged. I walked through the thick woods when I felt something pull on my back. I knew it had to be my mother or father and I knew that I was in deep shit. I turned and saw nothing. When I turned around I saw a tall figure slightly in front of me. They were looking at me but who was it? I took the risk and I kept waking onward.
My steps were hesitant due to the thought that maybe this was mother or father. I then decided that my secret route would be faster and better and I quickly ducked over to the side and I began walking to the Heaven's Arena Apartments.
It was about a 15 minute walk so I took my time. Still being cautious about what I had saw I no longer felt a presence following me which was reliving. I was now in front of the apartments.
{Hisoka's pov}
I had followed Illumi for awhile but I gave up knowing she wasn't heading towards my place but the direction of the Phantom Troupe hideout. I know she doesn't have any secret routes because she would have told me. I think so atleast so I walked back over to my car and I drove back to my apartment and I walked back into my room and I quickly fell asleep.
{Illumi's Pov}
I walked inside and I walked up to the front desk and I asked for Hisoka's room number explaining that I was her girlfriend (even though I wasn't. I needed her room number ASAP) "uhm... 782.. here's a key I guess..." Thank you so much ma'am.
I walked over to the elevator and I punched in the numbers and the elevator soon moved up swiftly. It had been about 15 minutes now of moving up and finally the door opened. I headed towards her room. I soon read the number 780...781 and finally 782. I slid the key into the door and I slowly opened the door.