Bubble gum <3 (a lesbian hisoillu love story)

•6 Please Forgive Me

I was woken up from the bright sunlight that shined into my room. I got up and I closed my blinds and I crawled back into bed. Right as I was drifting back into slumber I felt the nails of someone dig into my arm "Don't leave again." I looked over confused and I saw Illumi. "Illumi. I missed you. I won't leave again I promise but why are you back here darling~" I got no response from her so I looked over at her to see she was passed out. "I guess I'll ask you when you wake up. Sleep well beautiful."
{Time skip} {Illumi's Pov}
I woke up around 12:00. I looked over to see Hisoka now passed out as well. I felt my stomach flutter in happiness. I got up and I walked into the bathroom and I took a quick shower. The cuts on my arms burned from the hot water. I felt a few tears roll off my face because of the unbearable pain. I stepped out and I dried off and I put on my clothes that I have now been wearing for 2 days straight. I didn't really care. I walked out and I saw that Hisoka was now up and awake.
I walked over to her and I hugged her and instantly started crying into her shoulder. "I'm sorry for leaving.. I realized how much you mean to me Hisoka. I love you. I don't ever want to leave your side ever again. I just want to be held and loved by you."
{Hisoka's pov}
"Illumi, I feel the exact same way about you. I love you so much. I've never seen you show so much emotion.. especially to me I thought you hated me." I could never Hisoka. The next 5 minutes were filled with the sound of Illumi crying uncontrollably. Illumi, darling calm down. Everything is okay. "No it's not. I left you here by yourself and I was so mean to you.. I'm sorry please forgive me" Illumi. You did nothing wrong. You needed a break and I don't blame you for leaving I'm glad you are back and in my arms that's all that matters to me.
I was caressing her head trying to comfort her. My hands running through her thick black hair that was unreasonably soft. Finally the tears stopped and she looked up at me. I leaned down and I planted a kiss onto her forehead and I gave her a hug. "My parents are still trying to marry me off Hisoka. If they find out I'm here they will kill both of us." They aren't going to find us Illumi and that's a promise. I'm going to protect you with my life if it's the last thing I do.
I stared into her deep black eyes and my lips made contact with hers. We made out for about 4 minutes until I went to go and take off the hoodie she stole from me and she quickly backed up "no." What's wrong? "Nothing I'm just tired" no... Illumi there is something wrong. What did you do? "NOTHING!" Illumi.. please don't tell me that you? "Yes. I did I'm so tired. "I'm in so much pain and I just want some one to care. Why do you even want to be around me? I'm just a cold blooded killer."
The words that now floated around the room attacked my heart like thousands of tiny needles being pushed into it. "Illumi.. I wish you would've told me sooner. This isn't the way to take it out on your self. You're not a cold blooded killer. Your so much more. You have the most beautiful eyes that could trap me into their vastness. Your all I want Illumi. Your hair is like the finest silk that I could run my hands through forever. I love you more than you will ever know Illumi. I need you. "I'm sorry, I should have told you. You're the only person who has ever actually cared and loved me. I'm scared to lose you. I thought you would walk away from me if I told you. I just want to sleep right now in your arms. I just want to feel safe."
Let's get these cuts cleaned up. I cleaned all of her cuts up and I gave her a fresh pair of clothes to wear. I saw the cuts that were engraved on her arms, thighs and stomach and it broke my heart to see her like this. "Illumi please never do this again. I hate seeing you like this darling." "I will try. Can we sleep now?" Yes darling I kissed her forehead and I carried her over the my bed and I lied her down. I crawled next to her and she rolled on top of me. "I love you Hisoka." I love you too Illumi, please rest for me. You need it." She soon passed out and I began to think. What are we going to do with her damn family?