Cancerous

Chapter 1

As i had just got saved i couldn't stop thinking about the fact i couldn't help my family, after a titan attacked my home my dad tried to fight it off with his sphere but got demolished. My two brothers start running after my mom had told them to as she was desperately trying to stop the titan inside our home. My two brothers were cornered by a 15 meter titan then were eaten alive, after i had just seen my family get eaten in front of my eyes there's so point of living anymore, there's no one left for me, if i just died i could get out of this cruel disgusting world. As i got down on my knees admitting my defeat i heard things in the tree, i guessed it was a titan. As that same titan that has ate my brothers approached me it reached down to grab me, suddenly there's blood everywhere, the titan is about to fall on me. Right as it was about to fall and crush me to my death i was grabbed and pulled away, so much has just happened i didn't react, my face didn't move an inch. Why had i just been saved, why didn't they let me die? There's no point of living anymore i lost everyone i loved!

As i realized living would just mean i would have to live with the guilt of watching my family died, i snapped.
I started kicking and punching the person that was carrying me, they told me to calm down but i just couldn't, as anger turned into frustration then into sadness i broke down.
I was crying so much, i no longer could help it i can't handle such guilt.
As i was being put down on a tall tree i didn't make eye contact or even look at the person who had just saved me, they told me to stay put and that the "rescue" squad would come and get me.

Around 10 minutes i suppose people had came and got me, they brought me to wall rose where everyone was. I had never seen so many people in one area since i've always lived in a small village near the end district of wall maria where it had recently been kicked down by the colossal titan.
That damn titan, if it wasn't for it my family wouldn't be dead right now, i wouldn't be living alone, i wouldn't have to live with all the guilt and frustration. To get my mind off of what just happened i started walking around wall rose, i realized how beautiful this place was, it had tall buildings beautiful plants and sightings. It would've been just perfect if it wasn't for those damn titans ruining everyone's lives. As i soon started looking around at the people around me i realized it wasn't just me that went through such things, these people have also witnessed their loved ones dying in-front of their eyes. I started coughing, my body felt weak, my legs broke down, i fell to the ground. It was my cancer, I was diagnosed by doctor Jeager when i was just 3 years old he said i had kidney cancer but it would soon spread everywhere around my body, it's been spreading to my legs recently i could feel it. My mom told me to not tell anyone unless i didn't wanna live normal life, so i kept quiet about my illness. As people started to notice i was on the ground they called for helped, i was carried once again to safety, i was put in some camp looking place. I was placed in a small sleeping bag on the ground, did they expect me to sleep after i had just seen my worst nightmare accrue? Even though i was tired there was no way i was taking my chances of sleeping and getting a nightmare. I laid down in the sleeping bag as i couldn't do anything, I slowly started drift to sleep. I woke up to a sound of a bell, then a man yelling loudly, he said all children over the age of 10 must join one of the training camps. As i was making my to where the man had directed me to, i ran into someone, as my legs were still very weak, i fell down. After i got up i apologize, but he just walked away, how rude. I arrived where we were supposed to train, i guess the man was asking us to introduce ourselves, but it seemed like he was only asking certain people, weird.

I was praying it wouldn't be me since he looked awfully intimidating, but that's just my luck i was called on.
"MY NAME IS Y/N IM FROM SOUTH DISTRICT IN WALL MARIA, IM 19 YEARS OLD!"
I looked around noticing when everyone else was called on they were all so young..