𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩 || 𝙜.𝙨𝙖𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙪

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nsfw warning!!!!
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friday arrived sooner than y/n realized, waking up on the bright morning, she tried to keep her mind off of the small "incident" that had happened the night before. y/n got up and stretched thoroughly before walking into her kitchen looking for something to eat.

she stood munching on a piece of toast and occasionally sipping from a pre-made smoothie, she waited as her phone rang. trying to get ahold of her therapist, y/n was mildly anxious.

"hello? y/n? is everything alright?"

"do you happen to be busy at the moment?" y/n shoved the rest of the bread into her mouth, chewing quickly.

"I can talk if you need, what's bothering you? it's been months since you've contacted me."

"I have been doing well with work, but..."

"but what?"

"I can't get him out of my head..."

"has this started up again recently?"

"here and there the past few weeks but after hearing that song yesterday, the thought of him...."

"hasn't left your mind I presume?"

"yeah... something like that." y/n looked down at her feet, ashamed, "I miss him."

"y/n?"

she hummed in response, squeezing her eyes shut and leaning against the counter, her attempt to not cry might come to no avail.

"breathe first, I can hear your tears forming."

y/n chuckled briefly, but took a deep breath.

"good," her therapist began, "why do you miss him?"

"he was good to me... in the beginning."

"but, then what happened? what did you learn y/n?"

"I learned my worth.."

"You learned so much and bounced back! You're doing much better than you think ms. y/n," her therapist cheered.

"yeah..." y/n reverted her eyes off of her phone as if avoiding eye contact.

"you aren't still sleeping with that blonde boy..... are you?"

"what does he have to do with this?" y/n rolled her eyes in disinterest.

"well, I think you need to give yourself time to heal."

"I am!" she gripped her island in frustration.

"y/n–"

"No, I am taking care of myself. I work, I am successful, and I reward myself."

"y/n, you're not over him, and you're deflecting these feelings onto the men you sleep with."

"deflecting? I don't catch feelings for any man I've slept with, plus there hasn't even been that many."