This life is OURS ❤

Chapter 5: The Explanation

Mycs' POV

"The Story behind not texting Den"

"kasi ganito yun love my friends invited me to go out, hindi nga sana ako pupunta kasi alam kong magagalit ka, pero baka sabihin nila kinakalimutan ko na sila at maisumbat lahat ng ginawa nila for me" I explained
"But love you know naman your friends are not like that, maiintindihan naman nila If you're not coming" she said
"I know love, pero kilala ko sila, hindi nila sinasabi pero deep inside nagtatampo sila, my friends are also my family, they insist me to text you but....." natigilan ako kasi alam kong magagalit siya sa reason ko
"but what?!" she said with a different tone of voice. oh no mycs! you're in trouble man! don't lie, don't lie.
"mom?! are you mad?! mom? dad? are you fighting?! again?! ughh" ysh asks.
"no baby" me and den
"kasi ano....love sorry I know magagalit ka, please" i said with a puppy eyes
"tell me what was your damn reason Mister!" oh no she's mad 😣
"don't get mad please, I was too boast to tell them that I am the father and I should've not tell you where I'm going to, maybe influences by others, they always tell me I was 'under de saya' kase" 🙈😣
"what?! seriously mister?! you said that? you have that kind of mindset?! who the hell cares what other people say or think?! they don't hold our life!....." ptj she stopped
"mom can you lower your voice?! it's nakakahiya we're at the mall and it's our family day don't ruin it! can we just go home! I'm sick and tired of your senseless fight! 😡" ysh
"what did you said young bratt?! never talk to me like that and stop rolling your eyes on me young woman, Yes we will go home!" sptj 😡
"girls can you please calm down?! they're looking us!" i whisper
"adi! adi! whath happening? are you fighting? why adi?" eli ask
"later na baby, come I'll carry you"
we're walking through the parking lot. until we hit the road no one's talking. ysh and eli at the backseat and den at the passenger seat of course.
"ysh, you should've not talking to someone older than you like that, especially your mom" i said with a calm voice. I'm not scolding her, I'm explaining.
"but, daddy, I'm tired of hearing your fights, mom's rants, ever since I was a baby, you always fight (she started crying) and....." she stopped
"and you should've not raising your voice to us young woman! Hindi ka namin tinuruan ng ganyan! yan ba natutunan mo sa school mo? yan ba tinuturo ng teacher mo? kung ganun din you'll stop studying na" den said, with a loud voice, ysh's still crying. we're home na but still at our garagge
"let's talk inside" i said
"no mommy!" ysh said with a loud voice! we was about to go out the car and enter the house but we stop when we heard ysh shout
"What did you said?!" den
"i said no! my teacher told us how a perfect family should be, and I realized we're not a perfect family *sniff* you always fight! almost everyday, if this is what I'm going to hear everyday, i wish i just lost my hearing ability, if every word i say is wrong i wish i lost my speaking ability, if this what am i going to witness every day i wish i was blind, i wish i lost all my senses, i hate you" she ran away, towards her room i guess.
"come back young ladyyy!!!!" den is bursting with anger, bumaba na kami sa car
"den, hayaan mo muna" i said
"kaya lumalaking bratt yan eh, you're spoiling her! 😡" she said, so ako nanaman?!
"ano ba den, lahat nalang ba isisisi mo saakin?! you're so unfair dennise, tayong dalawa nagpalaki diyan kasalanan nating dalawa kung bakit siya ganyan wag kang manisi ng iba!" now i am mad!
"myco! den! anong nangyayari? nag-aaway ba kayo? bakit umiiyak si ysh?!" mom's here? why? shit! wrong timing.
"wowaaa" eli ran to her lola she's also crying
"fighting 😭" eli continue
"ma, anong ginagawa mo dito?" i asked
"i came here to visit you and then this is what am i going to see? myco? (looked at me) den? (looked at den with confusion)
"I'm sorry mom" den
"ma, sa loob na tayo mag-usap, yaya patulugin mo na si eli, bring her to her room please" den said
"no mommy, i will stay, with wowa" eli said and hugged her lola
"eli please, don't be so hard headed like your ate, i look grumpy na" den
"okay 😣 good night wowa *kiss* good night adi *kiss* good night ami *kiss* :(" eli
"good night baby lola loves you :*"
"good night baby smile kana please" i said
"good night baby girl" she walked away with her head down poor babies of mine :(
"now tell me what happened" mom, i told what really happened
"alam kong mali ang ginawa ni ysh, pero may point yung bata, sinong anak ang gustong makitang nag-aaway ang kanyang mga magulang? hindi niyo ba talaga maayos ang isang problema na hindi kayo nag-aaway? na hindi kayo nagsisisihan? myco? den?" walang nakasagot saaming dalawa, and when i looked at ysh door she's there, she's listening
"ysh?! baby come here" i said but she just keep on staring us while drowning in tears.
"come baby, daddy wants to talk to you, come down baby please" that's the time na bumaba siya, pero si mama ang nilapitan niya na para bang takot saamin.
"baby tell me, what do you want?" i asked
"*sniff* i want you to *sniff* stop fighting, to love each other, no comparisons to me and eli, I am the loser :(" she said
"you're not a loser baby, you're a winner for me, to us, you're our first princess, you bring joy to us" she's looking at den na parang nagtatanong ang mga mata niya na 'you mom? do i bring joy to your life?' i looked at den
"lola, can i come with you?" ysh asked if can stay to mom's house
"what?!" den
"lola please?" ysh
"myco? den?" mom
"mas mabuti pang saamin muna siya hangga't di niyo naayos yan" mom continue
i looked at den (do-you-want-look)
"no!" den said
and ysh is crying again
"ysh can you please stop crying? you're not going, you're not going anywhere" den continue she stood up but i grabbed her hand. she sat down again
"den, look, mas lalong mahihirapan yung bata kung lagi kayong ganyan, gusto niyo ba isang araw na ayaw na kayo ng anak niyo?" mom said
"den, please, hayaan na muna natin siya, kung yun yung gusto niya, ysh tell to your yaya, pack your things and your school needs be a good girl" i said
"but myco...." den 😠
"den.... ma sige na alis na kayo" i said while standing up
"manong pahatid sina mommy sa house" i continue
"myco?$ what are you doing?" den
"den, please for once let me decide to this house!" i walked through our room, she followed.
"myco, sabihin mo nga saakin? is this about your mindset again?!" den
i sat on the bed
"look den, tama yung bata, tama si mama, lagi nalang ba tayo mag-aaway, tignan mo pati anak natin ayaw ng magstay sa bahay, nag-sawa na siya, den napapansin ko rin na napapalayo loob mo kay ysh, kaya siguro ayaw mo narin siyang magstay" i said
"what?! hindi totoo yan, anak ko siya, so bakit ko gugustuhing malayo ang anak ko saakin?! what the hell are you thinking myco?!" she said
"look den, hindi ako lumaki sa pamilyang laging nag-aaway ang magulang kaya hindi ko alam ang nararamdaman ni ysh ngayon, but since I'm her father nakikita ko sa mga mata niya, ikaw? ina ka niya diba? nararamdaman mo ba yun? nakita mo ba ang sakit ng iyak niya kanina? den, may point yung bata, wala na ba talagang pag-asang maayos ito? heto nanaman ba tayo den? bumabalik sa dati?" i explained
"so anong ibig mong sabihing bumabalik sa dati? na magkahiwalay tayo?" she said
"ano?! den, wala akong sinasabing maghiwalay tayo! bakit yan nanaman ba solusyon mo? gusto mo nanamang magkahiwalay tayo?" i asked
"ikaw?! hahayaan mo nanaman akong umalis?" she asked
"kung katulad noon, ginusto mong umalis at hinayaan lang kita ngayon hindi na, den, hindi ka ba naawa sa mga anak natin?" i asked
"kung yun yung paraan para maging maayos sila, kakayanin ko myco, bakit yun nalang ba ang dahilan mo para hindi mo ako palayain?" she asked with a tear
"hindi, den, mahal kita, mahal na mahal, nagsumpaan tayo diba? alam ng diyos yan den, kung noon hinayaan kita kahit mahal kita, ngayon hindi na, kasi mahal na mahal na kita, higit pa sa buhay ko, hindi ko kakayaning mawala kayo" wala na siyang nasagot i stood up and hugged her while saying, "shh. don't cry my love, maayos naman natin ito ng magkasama diba? diba nangako tayo na walang iwanan? kakayanin natin ito, walang iwanan, team antonio forever diba?"
"i love you mycs *sniff* *sniff*" she said with a tight hug
"i love you too, more that you love me *kiss on the forehead*" i said
wala namang perfect family diba? lahat nagkakamali, lahat nagkakaproblem, basta magtulungan lahat kakayanin,that's the perfect family, Lord, i know you don't give a battle we can't fight, now I am going to fight for my family, my family is the precious gift you have given me, they're worth fighting for. ❤️ TeamLA forever (Lazaro-Antonio)
I may not give all what they want but I am going to make sure I'm going to give more than what they need, and that's love.