Just Engaged || Completed

Part 6

Jin Speaks:

I was about to put down the flower bouquet down and go hug her. But someone held my arm from behind.

"Hyung. She's not y/n. You are hallucinating again. Did you stop taking the pills?" Namjoon whispered as he pulled me close to him, making me get back to my pathetic reality. The members along with me were trying hard to hide the pain. I stood there blinking away the tears, accepting the agonizing reality. The crowd now looking at me, were thinking that I was totally awestruck by Sana's beauty and gave an "aww, how sweet" which was not helping.

After the wonderful night with y/n, I've been thinking of her so much. I knew it was not possible to fall in love with a person you just met. But the realization that I am going to spend the rest of my life with the person I would never love and more importantly her absence made me long for her more. I may have known y/n for a very less time than the time required to fall in love with a person, but the absence itself was making me ache for her. But as days passed by, my regret for her absence was piling up that I started hallucinating her presence. I didn't know if it was love, but I know I'd do anything to make her stay in my life, forever... 

I felt Namjoon nudging me and realized that Sana was now standing near me. "Hi darling. You look wonderful in the suit" she said as she came and stood near me. She kissed my cheeks to which I immediately felt nauseous. We exchanged the rings. The moment she touched my hand, I felt it was creepy. I didn't take much time to put on the ring and just turn towards the crowd to give the fake smile. How much I wished it was y/n who was near me right then.

There were plenty of parties arranged and packed as I was leaving for the military service soon. It was too suffocating that I had to carry the fake smile for a pretty long time on my face. But Sana was least bothered about it. Her theory was all that, once I get engaged to her, she can keep me close to her and I won't have the need or opportunity to even think of y/n. Well, she was as wrong as everyone.

It was time for my service. I was standing to board the train with my backpack. I had my family beside me, the members, Sana and her family, a few media persons to make it an international news.

Days passed by and not a day passed on without crying myself to sleep. I had to be constantly on pills to stop hallucinating. The only thing that was left as a memory of her was, her phone, her id card, few cash and a cute little photo of hers. That was the only hope that kept me living with the fact that I had to face the reality when I get back.

Two years later

The training has got over, but my true nightmare was about to begin. I was welcomed by the huge grand decorations in the airport. I wished that I would see my mom as the first person, but who am I kidding? There she stood. Sana, my worst nightmare. I immediately felt suffocated and my steps began to slow down. The faintest smile that I had been saving for the past few months started to fade away. I felt as if darkness has surrounded me and my angel would never appear for, I had let her go... long before.

The members were there and immediately felt my uneasiness. "Guys, I can't. Either ask her to leave. Else take me somewhere else. I need some space" I said. I felt dizzy.

Taehyung immediately put up a plan and acted as if he was protecting me from the press and asked the members to cover me and took me to their car. The media were hyped up and the newspaper on the next day flashed with the title "BTS Jin returns from Military Service- The dramatic entry".

I sighed and gasped for some fresh air. "Hyung. You haven't even met your parents. You should return to at least see them" said Yoongi driving the car.