⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
MENTIONS OF INSOMNIA, ED AND SUICIDE
I have insomnia... which means it's hard for me to fall asleep and stay that way. So when I joined the avengers I had to start wearing tons of makeup to hade my eye bags.
I didn't wanna be a burden to them. I already knew from the beginning they had lots of problems and were very busy people. Sure they were all nice and welcoming to me, but I'm just not used to that yet.
I'm really glad nobody has caught on yet because for a 16 year old I sure do wear a lot of makeup.
J.A.R.V.I.S Miss Y/n Tony is calling..dinner is ready. Thank you J I'll be right down!
Uhh this is another thing I dread. When I was in the orphanage they wouldn't feed us all the time... this brought me to have a eating disorder. I try to eat as much as I can in front of the team but it hurts. I'm constantly choking back my food and trying to not make faces. I just don't want them to be worried.
Ahhh y/n nice of you to join us! Yeah sorry Tony i was just finishing some homework. Homework but it's Saturday? I have a big project for history on Monday. Ah I see well have a seat, there's a chair across from Nat! Thanks Tony.
As we're eating dinner I look up to y/n she gives me a weak smile and goes back to picking at her plate.
She really hasn't eaten much now that I think about it. Psssttt Wanda... What Nat? Does something seem off about y/n today? Uhh no I don't think so? Okay maybe it's just me then.
Shoot I notice Nat is catching on. I quickly suck it up and shove my mashed potato's and corn in my mouth. I sit there chewing for what feels like ages. Come on y/n swallow you can do it I say to myself.
Now all that's left is my steak... damn I've always hated steak even before the orphanage, back when I had a fam- NO DON'T THINK ABOUT THAT RN.
TIME SKIP TO AFTER DINNER ( CAUSE I CAN)
Ughhh I don't feel very good. I decided I would try to keep the food down this time, but I just couldn't. I open my door and check to see if anyone is in the hallway. Nope all clear! I rush to the bathroom on my floor. Damn it y/n why can't you just be normal I think as I finish puking in the toilet. I look up to the counter and see Bucky's extra razor blades...
Nobody would know a difference. You wear hoodies everyday. Would they know if I was gone? Should I jump off the tower.. It could take away my pain. *Knock knock knock* I freeze. Should I answer it.
An: hey guys sorry this is kinda brutal :(
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