Shorts?!

Hipbones

⚠️Trigger warning ⚠️
Anorexia
Disclaimer I'm not 100% sure on what Anorexia is although I did do some reading, so if I get something wrong just let me know.

I pull my swim bottoms on just over my hip bones only to realize the don't fit anymore. Normally I would be happy with this, not this time. I don't feel like dealing with the questions the team will throw at me. My dramatic weight loss has not been seen yet as I only wear mom jeans and hoodies cause "it's the style". I sigh maybe I'll just call Bucky and tell him I don't feel well.. then I won't have to wear a swimsuit. I have to admit I took it a little far when Liz told me I should loose weight. But I just couldn't stop, once I stoped eating or throwing it up it became second nature and i couldn't stop.

You know what no I wanna go have fun today. Who cares what the team says, I'll just say it was for modeling. Yep that's right I've been trying to model for a while now... my agent had also said I should loose some weight if I wanted a gig, so it's not a total lie.

I put on a skirt and crop top for the first time in months and walk down to the living room and out to the pool where everyone is. At first nobody says anything when I walk out, but I can feel there eyes on me.

Hey kid how are you today Tony says trying to lighten the mood as he notices how tense I am. "I'm alright, you?" I try to play it off cool, I don't know how long I'm gonna be able to last out here. I'm good thanks for asking kid. Hey guys food ready if you wanna come eat! Steve says trying not to make eye contact with me. Everyone gets up and takes a plate, I figure I better do the same.

As I'm taking a bite of my burger I have a face of disgust. What's wrong kid not feeling to hungry? "Really Steve you know she doesn't like hamburger"Bucky replies for me. It's alright I'll eat it I quickly say. No y/n I know you don't like it we have other things i the kitchen what do you want? No it's fine really buck I'll eat it. Fine but just know you don't have to.

I did finish the burger which surprised everyone. We now have to wait 30 min before we get into the pool because Steve is the pool police "yOU DoNT wAnT crAmPs dO yOU?" Alright times up guys we can go in he says in a proud tone. Everyone runs toward the pool I just get in the hot tub. 15 minutes sitting into the hot tub I don't feel so good, and Natasha can see it on my face. I start to turn a light shade of green matching my bathing suit. "Y/n hun are you alright?" I took a minute for me to respond but I said something along the lines of yep just fine. Around two minutes later I sit up feeling a bit dizzy and stumble out of the pool to my towel. Y/n are you sure your feeling okay says Bucky. I just reply with a soft mhm.

Shit... I grab my mouth and run to the bush (there was no way I was making it to the bathroom).
Bucky, Nat and Wanda all rush to me. Im holding my stomach in pain as I puke out the burger I had finished only a hour ago. I sigh as I finish, Nat rubbing my back Wanda saying comforting things and Bucky hold my hair. I look at them in sorrow. Im so sorry I say with tears in my eyes. Doll there's nothing to be sorry about, I told you you didn't want the burger. Buck it's not that... they all look at me in question. I haven't been able to keep anything down for 4 weeks now. I try I really do. It started as just trying to loos a bit of weight cause people say I need to but then I couldn't stop. I say all of this with tears streaming down my face. Bucky pulls me into his embrace.

I didn't wanna say anything but I did realize you had gotten a lot skinnier y/n. Peter says this being sorry that he had to. Y/n I'm afraid you are anorexic Nat says. I look at her with sad eyes and she pulls me off of Bucks lap and into hers. We can get you help dear. NO I burst out. I wanna be skinny. Y/n you can be skinny still, but you need to be healthy, besides you were already skinny babes no need to change Wanda says.

Y/n you need help and we are gonna give it to you weather you like it or not Tony reply's to Wanda. My vision starts to blur half way through Wandas speech. And by the end of Tony's I could tell I needed to get out of here.

Fine was the last thing I said before I blacked out.