Trapped In A Heartbroken Cage

- CHAPTER 3 (Backstory) -

They say love is the most beautiful feeling that every human would experience. The butterflies in the stomach make us feel gigglish and ticklish. The admiration we have for our crushes can make us undergo the romantic excitements and the craziness in our minds. However, little did they know that love can be the most painful and addictive feeling? Like when you admire your crush so much that a realization hits you home and tells you they will never have a chance to love you? All the delusions in our heads creating such romantic scenarios with them? How cruel can love be?

Love is like a rose that blooms forever, but its thorns are so deadly that bequeath you a prick of blood, leaving you for more and more.

"Hey, what are ya doing here?"

May I introduce you to the one and only one crush that I admired so much? The one I pondered all night long if he loves me.

"Seth? Nah, just wondering at my thoughts."

He smiled as he picked up a chair and put it beside me. He sat down and put his head on my shoulder.

"What are you reading?"

"This? It is one of the most boring books I had ever read," I chuckled.

"That must be why you kept on daydreaming," we both laughed, "What are you thinking about?"

"Nothing. Just school works, I guess."

It's you. I kept wondering about you.

He scoffed, "Well, for me, I was thinking about this beautiful girl," he scrolled through his phone, seemingly finding a photo of his crush.

My heart was crushed.

"Oh really? Let me see."

I looked down at his phone and saw a gorgeous girl who was from our class. Seth and I were from the same grade, and I could tell he had a crush on this girl. She had pale skin and magnificent straight black hair. Her eyes were deep dark brown and upturned. So gorgeous that I wished I was just a girl. So beautiful that I felt envy in my heart. But I put aside my envy as she was the most innocent and delightful woman. She was as pure as the driven snow, and the kindliness on her eyes showed that. She is Anna, and she is the girl that Seth is obsessed with.

"Beautiful, right? I dream to be in a relationship with her," he smiled brightly, "Tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and I will give her some roses she deserves."

He is so sweet, right? How delightful of him, and that is one of the reasons why I love him so much.

"So cheesy," I rolled my eyes, "I hope when you give her flowers, don't say some cheesy lines like that."

I wish those flowers were from me.

"I will not," he laughed, "I will just give it to her and say I like you, duh."

"I hope so," we both guffawed.

***

Today is now Valentine's Day.

The day of the worst. So much cheesy stuff going on. Lots of foil on the ground and styrofoam heart designs stuck on the wall. People were running towards their crush and confess their feelings after bottling for a long time. This day may be the worst as I heard lots of screaming in any place.

But this day was the day I will confess my feelings to my crush.

Funny, right? After he announced to me he had a crush on somebody else, why did I have the nerve to confess with him? I was pricked by a pang of jealousy, and yet, I was still here. I didn't care about his crush. All I care about was to confess to him because I thought that will be the way to repress my feelings for him for a long time. I wanted to stop this overwhelming feeling. I hate this.