Unintentional Love (Chuuya x Reader)

Lost in Thought

I turn to see Atsushi standing near my bench. "Oh hey Atsushi, what's up?" I pat the spot next to me offering him to come sit with me, which he comes and sits.

"I was just trying to clear my head from all of the things that happened since joining the agency. Why are you out here?" He looks at me with kind eyes.

He's always been so kind and friendly towards me since I've moved here. Maybe it'd be nice to tell someone about the emotions swirling in my head thanks to Chuuya.

"Well, there's a guy I met after moving here and...I think I might be developing romantic feelings for him, but I'm just not sure if it's smart for me to try and pursue romance after what happened with my ex." I look out at the water as if it can help give me the right answers.

"I don't know what happened in the past with your ex, but if you feel like you're beginning to have feelings for this guy then why not embrace it? What is there to lose?"

"...a lot. I don't even know if he feels remotely the same, and plus I'm broken when it comes to love. I-I just don't know if I can really trust someone again...I've had my heart shattered and I don't know if it's worth it to risk that same heartbreak again." Atsushi leaned forward to put his face into my line of sight to get my undivided attention.

"I can understand how that can be scary to act on those feelings, but if you don't you'll just live life regretting what you didn't do." I look at him in the eyes seeming to finally hear what he's saying. "Without taking those risks you'll be living a life of regret and I know that's not something you want." He gives me a warm smile before our conversation gets interrupted by the sound of his phone ringing. He picks it up and his facial expression changes from gentle and kind to something more serious. He stands up and begins to walk away before turning around and saying, "Sorry Dazai is on the phone with me, we just got a new case...I hope you come to a decision that you'll be happy with (y/n)."

I sigh, feeling even more lost in my thoughts as Atsushi walks away.

I'm not sure if I'm quite ready to say anything about these feelings... but maybe Atsushi is right and I'm just being too closed off.

After sitting there and watching the sun set completely I feel as though I've come closer to a decision.

Atsushi is right. What's the harm of taking the risk? I doubt Chuuya is the type of man to ignore me if he doesn't feel the same way.

I stand up from the bench and feel as though I'm filled with some sort of determination. I walk back home trying to keep my thoughts positive on what could happen tomorrow. I've come to the decision to ask him on a date tomorrow, the anticipation for tomorrow already running through my veins. Finally arriving home I get into my bed and try to calm my mind to get some sort of sleep. After what felt like hours I was still tossing and turning in my bed not getting a wink of sleep.

I'm not going to be able to sleep unless I play something to distract my mind.

I turn on some calming music and close my eyes laying on my back and taking deep breaths, almost meditating to fall asleep.

I open my eyes to see stars twinkling in the sky, as I look around I realize I'm in a meadow. I sit up just taking in the beautiful scenery at night and see a figure off the distance leaning on a tree. I stand up and walk towards the figure and begin to see the familiar orange haired man I've come to develop feelings for. He turns to look at me, and without saying a word holds out his hand to me. I look at his hand for a second pondering if I can really trust him, looking into his eyes he gives me a gentle smile and upon seeing that smile I take his hand. He pulls me closer into him and hugs me stroking my hair gently. "I'm never going to abandon you (y/n)."