Ava
Umuwi kami sa bahay agad after that. Hindi ko na rin muna nireplyan si Eagan dahil hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko.
I can't sense if he's jealous or not. Hindi siya 'yung tipo ng tao na magseselos nang gano'n gano'n lang.
I straightly went to bed when we reached home. Nakakapagod mag ikot. Before, nung mga fifteen pa ako, I always wanted to go places to places. But now, if I can stay on my bed the whole day, I will willingly do it.
Time just flies so fast nang hindi natin namamalayan. I'm about to turn eighteen, and my Father still chooses gambling over his family.
Natatawa nalang talaga ako sa tuwing naaalala ko kung ano 'yung mga wedding vows nila. Palagi iyong nababanggit sa akin ni Mommy.
She even said that Dad cried so much that day. Saulo niya pa rin daw ang mga pangakong binitawan ni Daddy sa harap ng altar.
But just like usual couples, sa una lang sila naging masaya. Specifically when they had me. I was five when he discovered the happiness in gambling.
Let's not talk about that anymore. My tears would just force themselves out sa tuwing naaalala ko si Daddy.
Napatigil ako sa pag-iisip when a message popped-up.
From: Yino
G ka sa Saturday? Come here sa bahay.
I raised a brow. Bakit na naman?
To: Yino
Why?
Sandali akong naghintay sa reply niya.
From: Yino
We planned a little bonding bago mag start ang school.
I shook my head and replied 'ok' bago isinara ang phone.
Kinakabahan ako sa mga paganito ni Yino, the last time he invited us became really disastrous. Nagluluto lang siya noon ng noodles, yes, a freaking instant noodles! Tapos naubos 'yung sabaw, hindi luto 'yung pasta, he even left the electric stove open!
Good thing marunong naman ako ng basic knowledge about cooking so I fixed his mess. I still remember how irritated I was and how loud my Dad's laugh was.
Because that happened two years ago, hindi pa masyadong nalalayo si Daddy sa amin. Not like now na halos hindi na siya umuwi.
"Let's sleep, boo." Niyakap ko si boo which is my giant stuffed bear and dozed off to sleep.
"Lull, Daddy's sorry. I can't attend on your eighteenth birthday. Hanggang dito...nalang..." Lumapit ako sa kan'ya at hinawakan ang ulo niya. He's showering in his own blood.
"No, please! You promised me, you promised me to celebrate my debut on Paris...Daddy...keep your promises! You can't die!" Malakas akong umiiyak habang hinihiling sa kan'ya na kumapit at 'wag munang umalis.
He might have been wrong on that part where he chose gambling over us. But I didn't ever wish for this to happen.
"Lull, mahal kita. Mahal ka ni....Daddy." I cried my insides out when he slowly closed his eyes and chose to leave me forever.
Mahigpit kong hinawakan ang leeg niya, wala nang magawa kundi ang tanggapin na wala na siya.
He's gone, Lull.
Matalim kong tiningnan ang lalaking nakatayo sa pintuan ng kwarto kung nasaan kami. He's smiling while holding the gun in his right hand.
I thought he's the kindest and sweetest person I've ever met. Pero mali na naman ako, the sweetest gestures cover the dirtiest hands.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Mistake Of Falling For You
RomantikA maldita naive girl and a matured gentle boy. With a silver spoon in mouth, Lully never thought of other things rather than getting the attention of her Dad. For herself, she's nothing but an immature girl, not knowing what the future has prepared...
