Okay guys! So this chapter is just about me then I'll do one on Andrew... I just want to talk about me, kinda. Alright,well thanks for enjoying this story! It might end sooner than I thought it would but I'll keep you updated!
Randa
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I don't know why but I do know its in the past but I just can't help but get jelouse sometimes... I hate getting the feeling and thoughts saying I should break up with him.. That I'm no good and I'm fat and worthless and I get beat up all the time... I mean I just,don't get me wrong.. I love him with every piece of me but all that has been happening is fighting and crying and worrying... He's okay by the way... I just hate that he hurt him self... I mean he does the stupidest shit! He worrys me and makes me mad and cry and..
Thoughts keep coming and disappearing...
·"Break up with him!"
·"You're fat and don't deserve love!"
·"He doesn't really love you!"
·"He's just cheating on you"
·"You don't even know what love is"
But the one that hurt the most came from him.. No one ever had told me something so hurtful.. I love him and I would die without him because he is so amazing but I'm so afraid that he's gonna get knocked out and not wake up...
Sometimes I just want to take a handful of pills and not wake up... It would help a lot of people in this world... I don't know about Andrew... He never talks to me anymore and I feel like I'm losing him... I keep getting like a shiver or a shudder around my heart and I don't know what it is...
He makes me happy and blush and smile and I've never been happier but sometimes I get so depressed that all I want to do is cry...
