chasing my enemies: tatemcrae

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thursday august 14th <3

"morning sky, getting closer to the wedding are you excited" john says as i enter the kitchen getting a bottle of water out of the fridge. please just don't talk to me.

"i'm not excited for the wedding, just the party" i say honestly and try to walk off but he grabs my hand and stops me. "try and make this good for your mom, she's looking forward to it" he says, i frown my eyebrows at him and pull my arm away strongly.

with annoyance on my face i walk out the front door and start the short journey to school. i woke up a little late today so i wasn't ready for my friends to pick me up, but it's fine walking will clear my head.

once i arrive i make my way to the bleachers spotting my friends instantly. "yo sky, where did you disappear to last night" luca asks as i lay my eyes on tate. "noah walked me home" i say, seeing her furrow her eyebrows.

i take a seat next to lexi who pats my leg a little and goes back to eating her breakfast. "you ignored my texts, i was worried" tate says, moving from her seat and repositioning herself next to me. i don't even want to look at her right now, last night made me make my mind up about tate.

"didn't want to interfere with your girlfriend" i say, taking a sip of my water whilst she watches me.

"you've pushed me away that many times that i thought well she doesn't like me so why shouldn't i get with someone else" tate says and i shake my head.

"i've pushed you away once" i tell her calmly.

i hear her groan before she puts her hand on my cheek and turns my head so i am looking at her. "look at me and be honest, do you like me or do you not because your sounding pretty fucking jealous right now and i don't know how the fuck you feel" she says. i stare into her brown eyes trying to remain as confident as possible but it's kinda hard when she's this close to me.

i sigh and take her hand of my cheek, looking down at the floor. "why won't you just admit your feelings to yourself, if i knew i had a chance with you then i wouldn't of kissed that girl and you know that" she adds. i squeeze my eyes shut and rest my forehead on her shoulder.

"i do like you tate, i guess i've been trying to stop myself and then i didn't know how i felt truly until i saw you with that girl" i say, not lifting my head up once.

"can you just stop" josh exclaims unexpectedly, i look up seeing frustration on his face as my friends are trying to calm him down. "what the fuck is your problem? i don't like you like that and i never have" tate says, sighing and running her hand through her hair.

"i don't care, it's the fact that sky knows how much i have liked you and clearly doesn't care" he explains. i'm done with this conversation now. "i'm going to class" i say, standing up and walking off before anyone has time to protest.

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tate's point of view <3

i sigh watching sky walking off, turning my attention back to josh. "what the fuck dude, she finally admitted to me that she likes me after weeks of me trying and you can't just be happy" i exclaim, frowning my eyebrows and shaking my head at him.

i stand up and decide i might as well go to my music class which is the my first of the day, english second. i sigh walking through the boring halls as usual, seeing the same old stupid faces. "tate how are you" i hear, seeing the red head girl from last night coming over to me.

"leave me the fuck alone" i say, walking past her my shoulder knocking against hers. i head upstairs and find my classroom which only has a few people in up to now.

"hey miss, can i go in one of the little studios and work on my own today?" i ask the teacher, she's really only the one that has heard me sing or even write music. i have a few released on youtube but nobody really knows that. she nods happily and i thank her, going in one of the studio rooms and locking it.

i sit behind the piano and decide to warm up with one of my old songs i wrote. 'that way'

"run me in circles like you always do
mess with me on purpose and i'll hang on to you
i know what you mean when you act like that
but you don't know it's breaking my heart
said that it was just never gonna happen
then almost kissed me in the dark
every time we talk it just hurts so bad
cause i don't even know what we are"

i sing making sure to record myself while doing it, just incase i decide to put it up on youtube or whatever.