KANANS POV
"Well its important that I talk to him!" I protest. She keeps her place. I let out a sigh of frustration. "Fine I won't bother him." I said and she walked back to the cockpit and shut the door. I looked around and then opened ezra's door.
"Go away." He mumbled without opening hid eys. I now really wat to know what's up with him. "Come on time for training."I said and he got up. "Do I have to?" He whinned. "Yes. Now this will be a test. I'm going to say words and phrases while you hold that bolder up using the force." I explained. "Fine." He muttered. And I started.
"Your parents.....,the crew........the inquisitor.....lost......street rat......your tower....failing" I paused noticing that the bolder was shaking hard. "Losing the crew......losing your parents......becoming a street rat.....the inquisitor hurting the crew....the empire taking your family..." I paused and the rock was shaking uncontrollably. "Failing your parents.....failing tseebo.....failing the crew.....failing me" then the rock exploded. He jumped up.
"Stop!" He yelled and ran to his room.
EZRAS POV
I couldn't stand it anymore. I just got up and yelled, "stop!" Then ran to my room. The questions bumbered me and what he was saying half that wasn't on my mind and now it is. Really thanks kanan. I sat down and put my head back. Then I started to think.
What if I lose the crew? What if I'm failing the crew? did I fail my parents? Did I fail kanan? Am I a bad student? Am I failing him? Am I a disappointment to everyone?
Most of the questions hurt. They Made me feel guilty.
KANANS POV
I felt guilty but it wasn't my feeling. It was ezra's. the real question is why is he guilty. He never felt guilt before even when he does something wrong. He has no regrets. I decided it was time to talk to hera. So I came into the cockpit. "Hey, I see you woke ezra." She smirked. I chucked.
"Yeah well we needed to train, but that's not what you I needed to talk about." I told her. She gave me the look to keep going. "I feel ezra is feeling guilt. But I can't figure out why? He won't even talk to me." I sighed. "Maybe it's somthing he needs to keep to himself." She suggested and I left for ezra's room.
Ezra was lying in the ground looking up. Atleast he wasn't meditating. "Ezra, you need to let all the guilt go. You need to talk to some one. Anyone." I told him. He didn't awnser he was zoned out.
EZRA'S POV
The questions where all I could think about, all I could here. Your undisaplant. I heard kanan voice say. He means it's hard to teach you. Zeb's voice said. The darkness is swolled you up even now, orphan. A cold voice said. I won't try to train you kanan said leaving the good part. Then I saw Someone's hand in front of my face.
"Ezra?! You in there?" Kanan said. I shook my head. "Wha-um yeah." I said after being left in my thoughts. "Ezra, you need to talk to me or some one. It's important that you do." He told me. "I can't." I sighed. Why am I scared like the coward I was when my parents where taken? I thought.
KANANS POV
"I Can't." Ezra said. I turned around. "Yes you can. You should know that we're all behind you. We want to know why your feeling the guit. I feel it to. His eyes widened. "You feel my guilt. Why?" He said shaky. "Because me and you are padawan and master. I learn things I didn't under stand by teaching you." I said reassuring. "Well I guess I have to learn them in a hundred years from now,like you did " he said and I glared at him.
"What are you afraid of?" I asked. "I don't know." He mumbled. "Yes you do." I protested. "I do but I'm not going to tell you." He turned. "Sometimes you need to let your gaurd down. Even the best jedis have pain, sorrow, a weekness. A fear." I explained. Then he ran to up the ladder and into the vent. Classic ezra.
