CHAPTER 9

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KANANS POV
A few days since ezra used the darkness

The crew was fighting. Everyone except me and ezra.

Sabine and zeb where screaming at each other about who knows what. "You ignorite lasat!" Sabine yelled.

"Mandilorians can be so much to handle." Zeb grunted.

"You knocked down a brand new paint can! Now you but a new one." She demanded.

"What! No way!" Zeb shouted. I decided to go to the cockpit. That was my mistake.

"You can never plug on to the right place!" Hera yelled at chopper. He beeped agresively. "No get back here!" She yelled as the astromec rolled out of the room.

EZRAS POV

I came into the cockpit where hera was being annoyed by chop. Who isn't? But this time it was diifrent. "H-hi hera..." I said carefully.

"What?!" She sassed. I just walked out of the room.

I saw the crew fighting for the past week now. I didn't talk. I was scared to, when I was little I stayed quiet. Finally I had it. Sabine and zeb came in fighting. 

"Shut up already!" I yelled, No I screamed. Everyone looked at me in silence. I just relized I haven't talked for about a week.

"Your parents probly left you because your nosy personality!" Zeb shouted.

"You should of keep your mouth shut street rat!" Sabine yelled. And my eyes widened. She put one hand over her mouth relizeing what she said. Everyone stood in awkward silence.

"Ezra...." sabine said out of sympothy.  I felt a tear run down my cheek and fall onto the floor. I ran up to the roof. I sat there while the ghost was in the clouds. My feet swung from the roof. I felt so unwanted. then I heard foot steps I didn't turn around I alrwady knew who it was.

"hey." Kanan said sitting next to me. I looked to the side my eyes were red and bloodshot. Tears stained my face.  I know what happened." He said and I looked at him.

"You don't. You know what sabine and zeb said." I told him.

"So then you gonna tell me?" He asked I already knew he would make me tell him anyways.

"My parents, they left me. But not the way you think. Before the empire took them, they told me that," I paused. "They left me with tseebo, they said that wanted me gone." I explained and I had a audio sniffle.

"I'm not enough. I ran away and became a street rat." He was spechless. I just stood up and left for my room.

LATER THAT NIGHT

KANANS POV

I needed to talk to the crew they are losing the whole purpose of out cause. I took out my comm, "GET INTO THE COMMON ROOM RIGHT NOW!" I screamed over the comm.

After we all gathered I went to talk up hera intruped, "what do you want?" She snapped at me. I glared at her.

"You are making ezra feel-" I started then got Intruped by ezra.

"You are all falling apart. Kanan and I are the only sane people!" Ezra shouted and then he sat down with his hands one his forhead with his elbows on the table.  Hera put a hand on his back. "Get off me! Just stay away, all of you." He pushed her hand away. I grabbed his wrist. "Even you." He said and left.

"See what all your fighting is causing him!" I yelled then calmed myself.

"Kanan, we're so sorry." Hera started.

"Me two." Sabine said.

Followed by zeb, "me three."

"Try to talk to ezra and calm him. He's feeling pushed away, again." They all gave me a questionable look. Then I explained about ezra's parents.

"Wow I feel horrible. I called him a street rat...." sabine said.

"I said his parents left him for a reason. I feel worse." Zeb said then they started a argument.

"Ya right!" Sabine shoutwd.

"Stop you two!" Hera yelled and broke up the fight. They calmed themselves and they all went to their rooms.

TIME SKIP MORNING

KANANS POV

I got up and found hera already done with breakfast. Then she left to wake the others. Soon they all came. Sabine then zeb then hera, then ezra. They all sat down. "Ezra, we're all really sorry about the past week." Hera said sitting next to him giving him a little hug, that he pulled away from.

"Okay....here." She handed a plate to him and he just pushed it away. Hera pushed the plate in front of him and that continued. Away, back, away, back.

He  finally just got up and walked to the side gun. I went to follow him. "Hey kanan." He said and I was shocked.

"I thought you weren't talking." I smirked.

"Like I said your the only sane one. Would you like me to not talk to you?" He asked Sarcasticlly. I just glared. I left after that and I wanted to meditate.

I had a vision of the ship crashing. Ezra was inside. I saw him in wrap around his stomach and head. Zeb was restraining me as the ship burned. Hera and sabine were crying and I didn't see ezra. Then I saw the time ezra fell off the ship during training.

I snapped my eyes open. Ezra was standing in the door way. "Hey kanan?" He said in a questionable tone.

"what!" I said with anger in my voice. He backed up and walked fastly away. I just relized I snapped at him and I face palmed.

He was in his room and I was listening to him talk to himself. "Get a grip ezra. You won't ever be apart of a family that wants you. Stop trusting people, it only leads to lose and disappointment." Then I heard a snif and a sigh. I waited for 7 or 8 minutes to go in. Then I burst through the door ready to give a huge inspirational speach.

"Ezra Bridger! You can trust me for..." I trailed off adknollaging that he was asleep. "Fine but we will talk about this" I said even though he couldn't hear me....I feel pretty stupid.

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