Choosing Brain rather than Heart

Chosing the Brain than Heart

"What is your order, Madame?" The waiter asked.

"Uhm. Can i have some Cappuccino, please." I lovely said.

"What else, Madame?" The waiter asked again.

"Nothing more." I smiled.

"Okay, Madame." He said, then he leave.

I was sitting here at nearby coffee shop. I'm waiting for someone. Actually, he's 7 minutes late but, I'm used to it. He's always late when we're meeting up.

"Madame? We are now closing this shop." The waiter weakly smiled.

"Ahm, can you please wait some time. Please, I'm sure he's on his way." I asked hoping that he will agree.

"Okay, Madame. But, in just 20 minutes, we'll be closing. Who ever your waiting Madame, he will not come. You've been here since 7:00 in the morning it's already 8:30 in the evening." He sighed. Then, he vanished from my sight.

Minutes had passed he didn't came. I slowly losing my temper. That asshole, why didn't he came? Did something happen to him? I shook my head, with the nonsense things coming to my head.

I leave the coffee shop with full of disappointment. My vision is getting blurry. I looked up to prevent my tears. But i failed, tears are now fastly going down to my cheeks.

Would my past will repeat itself? I wish it will not. My heart can no longer take it, i feel like it was hell, it hurts like hell. I was about to wipe my tears but i saw a familiar back.

It wasn't him right?

He will never hold someone else hand like it was mine.

He will never smile at someone else the way he smiled at me.

He will never look at someone else the way he looked at me.

And lastly, He will never kiss someone else passionately like he does at me.

I feel like my whole world stopped, when he looked at my direction.

My heart turned into pieces when he looked at me with full of sympathy. Then he let go the hand of my... b-best f-friend...

I feel like my knees will disown me. My hands are shaking. My eyes were crying, while i was biting my lower lip to prevent any sound. I can't believe it.

"H-hera...baby..." He weaky said.

"W-wh...w-why?..." I stuttering said.

"I-its not w-what you t-think..."He said while grabbing my hand.

"Then what?! WHAT IS THAT?!" I shouted while stepping aback.

"We were just friends. ONLY FRIENDS!" He shouted. My jaw dropped, he never shout at me, this is the first time.

"Then you often hold your friends' hand, huh?" I said.

"H-hey it's no-" I didn't listen.

"So you often smile at your friend the way you smile at me?" I bitterly smiled.

"L-listen to m-" Yet, i didn't listen.

"You also often look at your friend the same way you look at me?" I weakly asked.

"Hera...Look it wa-" I continue.

"And lasty, you often kiss your friends' lip, huh? The way you kissed me." I cried more than a while ago.

His jaw dropped. Maybe he didn't expect me to say those words.

"B-baby... I'm sorr-" I cut him off.

"Don't say sorry if you don't meant it!" I angrily said.

"Do you love him?" I asked my snake best friend.

"H-hera... sorr-" I cut her off.

"I said, DO YOU LOVE HIM?!" I angrily exclaimed.

"Y-yes..." She said without a doubt.

"Do you love her?" I ask him while looking directly at his eyes.

"No. You're the one whom i love." He said meeting my eyes.

"Then why? Why did you cheat? You love me, but not enough to stay loyal, huh?" I weakly asked him.

"Yes..." He answered fast. Wow. Just wow.

"Then, we're fair enough. I love you, but not enough to make me stay. Not enough to fight for you." I fircely said.

"You love her, aren't you? I saw all the pictures of both of you. I can see the happiness in your eyes, happiness not you don't have when you're with me. Those sparkling eyes, i saw that a while ago, you don't have that when youre with me. You said you love me, but why did you cheat? If you realy love me you wouldn't cheat. Did i make your heart flutter? Even just once? Of course no, because it's not me. It's her." I felt so weak. It's too much to absorb. Too much pain for this day.

"From now on you'll never cheat on me."

"From now on you'll never experience being controlled."

"From now on you'll always be with your happiness."

"From now on you're now free." I cried.

"Hera... Baby, don't. Please..." He begged.

"No, i must do this. It's for the better for you, for me. For us." I looked at him with full of pain.

"Baby, can i make a request? Can i hug you for the last time?" Then, he inch the gap between us. In just a blink he already locked me with his arms.

I'll miss this. I'll miss his hugs'. I'll miss his kisses. I'll miss the whole him. I'll miss the old us, happy and contented. I didn't expect that i will do this.

"Go on chase your happiness, even if it is not me. Be happy." I cried more. For this time I'm the one who hugged him tight. How i love this man.

I don't know what happened next but i just found myself kissing back at him. The way he kissed me, the way he touched my skin. I will miss this. He kissed me hungrily, i didn't complain instead, i kissed him more. For the last time our lips collide again.

Then, he stopped kissing me. I looked at his eyes. And i saw pain. We're both in pain, but i chose to end this. While saying those words;

"I love you. 'till our path cross again. Farewell my baby..." I cried like there's no tommorow.

Chosing what your heart says is not a crime. Chose it if you're willing to take all the consequences. Chosing you heart says mean your brave, brave enough to take all the pain.

But I chose to follow my brain. I love him but I chose his happiness. I am not selfish. I'd prefer to die with full of pain, rather than live with full of lies. I am not his happiness, who am i to cut his happiness?

Always chose the happiness of others than chosing your happiness for your own good.

- THE END -

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