Blessed by birth and baptized in water,
I never thought I would suffer.
But in crowded halls that choked my shoulders,
Solitude crept like a spider in the corners.
I forgot about you, and how much you meant.
And I found friends on the playground cement.
I was an alien in a secular planet
And she twisted my soul into something manic.
You were not to blame,
For I was lost in her game.
With shallow allure and cheap flirtations,
I envied her machinations.
She charmed boys and friends with laughter,
And I forgot what it was like to matter.
Shoved aside in a mind she made,
I began to fade.
Hatred swarmed the ceiling of doubt.
Whispers of anguish cast me out.
I cried for violence against myself
And in the dark I prayed for help.
I wished to cease the gift you've given,
To end this so-called living,
The steel poised to cut the wrist
And count my sins in a bloody list.
But then, I saw your face in his,
My father trembling as he kissed.
I fell in agony, my soul in flame
Because my mother spoke your name.
Your heart of light destroyed the dark,
Embracing with a love so stark,
As I with sorrow dropped the knife,
Clinging for my life.
From weeping I was born anew,
And the Spirit within me grew.
For I remembered how much you care,
By your blood and skin hung bare.
And we spoke the words of my childhood prayers,
Deep beneath the blanket layers,
I found you again.
And for this, my soul I'll send.
For tomorrow is a reason to stay
And in your grace, I pray:
To seize the day and live for you,
Just as you have died for me.
