Do I have to be on the same timeline as others?
"He's better than you." They said.
"Look at them it should've been you if you didn't..." they said.
"You keep on doing this... that's why your rank keeps on getting lower and lower..." they said.
"Why do you keep wasting your time doing this instead of reading your books." They said.
"Why did you do this..." "Why did you do that..." they said.
"Oh, I plan to do this..." I said.
"Did you know this have...but it's your choice, but still this would be better..." they said.
As my voice continue to stay unheard, their voices became too loud for me to bear.
They want the best for you they said. I did what they asked of me, I did everything but I failed.
That failure, I blamed myself.
It's my fault, I probably didn't do my best.
I probably became too lazy just like they said.
I probably did something I shouldn't have like they said.
That failure proved that I'm wrong and they are right.
But then I continue to recall.
What is it that they said, what is it that I should do?
I can't remember.
Now, I'm lost, lost in the world of self-destruction.
Lost to the voices I cannot understand.
That failure, I lost myself in return.
-Truly Just Me In The Darkest of Days
