Jilliannes pov
The rest of the day went by fast and the guys are already knocking on my door. I walked over and looked through the glass part and noticed it was matt, Johnson and Gilinsky. I opened the door to them.
"Um come in" I faintly said opening the door wider for them. They gave me small smiles and I closed the door.
They took their shoes off, and made their way to the living room. I followed behind them, they sat down on the couch, it was quiet for awhile.
Just them looking at the floor or looking around them. I broke the silence. "uh do you guys want anything to drink or to-" I was about to finish speaking but I was cut off.
"Nothing's changed." Johnson said "uhm what do you mean?" I ask "I mean this place, so many things have happened here" he continued saying "uh yeah I guess" I laughed a bit.
"You haven't ch-" gilinsky was about to say till I cut him off. "why are you guys being nice?" I say raising one eyebrow they didn't say anything they just looked down and played with their thumbs.
"Whatever I shouldn't have brought it up.... One sec let me just get my laptop and books upstairs and we'll start" I say heading up the stairs.
I quickly grab my stuff from my bed and head back downstairs. I place my laptop down and my books down. "Hey you still have the same old dia-" Gilinsky was about to say till I snatched it out of his hands. I guess it was mixed with some of my textbooks.
"No I don't" I said looking down trying to put the book into my bag till matt ripped it out of my hands and ran away with it. I tried chasing after him but Gilinsky held my wrists behind my back. I winced and he quickly let go.
"Jillianne..." Johnson said
I didn't say anything. I kept quiet and held my head low. Matt put my diary into my bag and they approached me as My back hit the wall. "show us your wrists" Gilinsky says, I just stood there not knowing what to do.
If they find out they'll probably tell the whole school and my life would actually be a living hell not that it already isn't but it'll get worst.
They grabbed my arms and rolled up my sleeves. There were a few fresh cuts some still healing. "Jillianne Wha-" matt was going to say till I bursted out into hysterics and tears streamed down my face.
I pushed myself off the wall and now their backs were against the wall. They've got to be joking. They looked at my like I was a psycho.
"You're kidding me right?" I say as I am sobbing "you guys seriously don't think you guys weren't the ones who did this to me?! don't start acting all nice and shit. I know you guys hate me don't even ask me why I did it. Who wouldn't do this after awhile? Right? Repeated sayings get stuck in your and you start to believe it" I was saying till matt tried speaking "but-" "no let me finish, you guys have got to be idiots if you haven't known already, that you guys have made me want to kill myself! look the proof is right here!" I tell rolling my sleeves up again. their eyes started to get glossy. "Don't cry because I know you guys don't care. You guys are probably just going to go around and tell the whole school! Maybe I'll actually commit!" I yell once again breaking down.
"What do you mean?" Johnson says i picked my head up and looked at them in the eyes. Shaking my head in disbelief that they didn't know. I sighed "Do you remember that one time when I wasn't at school for a few weeks or so? Well yeah um I had swallowed half the bottle of my anxiety pills and I was brought to the hospital, and that was after when you guys called me worthless, fat, ugly stupid, after you called me a slut, when you said I tried sleeping with the teachers for better grades." I said calming down a little bit more.
More and more tears kept falling down my cheeks. They had tears rolling down their faces too.
"Jillianne I-I, I don't know what to say" matt says "you guys have said enough, give me one second I'll be right back." I say turning to the washroom. I took a look in the mirror and wiped my tears off of my face. I recollected myself and I glanced at the mirror once again. My eyes were red and puffy.
I blew my nose and walked out of the washroom. They were sitting down on the couches and I took a look at the clock and it was already 5:45. They noticed me walking back into the room and Johnson began to speak "jillianne look can we make if up to you please, give us one more chance." he had worry in his voice.
"Look you guys, throughout the years I learned I shouldn't trust people or let th-" I was about to say till I was cut off. what is up with people always cutting me off?
"Please jillianne you have to we need to prove to you that we are truly sorry for what we did." matthew says. "Don't get me wrong our friendship was utterly amazing. But I am not so sure to be honest" I was saying.
"Please jillianne one more chance we have to prove it to you, we talked about it while you were in the washroom and we are truly sorry for what we did. We talked about it all. all we have to do now is get you to forgive us I know it'll be hard because, what we did was pretty bad and unforgivable so we will try and make it up to you and make everything better.
Just please forgive us. I don't know what it is but something in us three just wanted to be your best friend again if not at least friends." gilinsky says and matt and Johnson agreeing.
Jack G's pov
I had to try and get her back. We had to. I know what we have done is to much to bare. but we still need to try. I have done a lot to her, we all have. It would be a miracle if she forgave us.
I've spread rumours about her and they were pretty bad. One time there was this new kid and he was gonna talk to her but I told him that she tried to sleep with half the guys in the school. with that he changed his direction.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when jillianne spoke.
"Can we please talk about this another time lets work on the project." she says with no emotion. We all sigh and then nod. This is going to be a long night.
