All or Nothing

Lost and Found

TW: Panic attacks, sedation, torture

Loki let his fists come slamming down on the coffee table in the middle of his shared suite. His chest heaves up and down with angry breaths when the table cracks in half beneath the weight of his fists. He's seething and turns instantly on the person who dares to lay a hand on his shoulder. He stops when he's face to face with the man he loves, he lets his masks drop and he puts his arms around Bucky, "they took her."

Bucky's arms lock firmly around Loki's midsection. "I know Lo, but we will get her back they can't hide her from us forever."

"No, they won't but I will make them pay for this," Loki growls.

Bucky can only agree, holding Loki tightly but blaming himself for the fact that you were gone. Something had gone south during your last mission, the team had been out and you had been separated. Lured away and captured by HYDRA, it was his fault for leaving your side, he should have seen it coming.

It's Loki's turn to comfort his boyfriend, knowing he's bound to be blaming himself just as much as he is himself. "It's not your fault Love."

"Then it's not your fault either," Bucky retorts and Loki can only sigh.

~~~~~

Your head is throbbing and the world is spinning when you peek your eyes open. The lights are too bright so you quickly close your eyes again with a groan. This was worse than any hangover you'd experienced and you knew you didn't know where you were from that slight glance around the room you'd gotten.

"She's waking up," a voice says that sounds more distant than it should be. You don't get a chance to react before you feel a prick on your arm and everything goes dark once again.

~~~~~

Bucky hadn't slept in days, neither had Loki. When Steve calls the team into a meeting the two men show up together, on their feet and functioning. Steve shares a glance with Thor that confirms his suspicion, that they aren't fit to go on a mission in this state.

Unfortunately he knew they couldn't stop the two from coming along on this one. For the first time in weeks they had a lead on you and your location. You'd been missing for nearly three months and the only way he and Thor would get the ones they called brother to rest was bringing you home.

Once everyone was gathered he started the briefing. They had a lead on you, a solid one and they were going to get you back. And get you back they did.

It's a few days later when they get back and though you seem to be remaining unconscious they refuse to leave your side. You're kept in the medical room and they make due with the one recliner that is at your bedside, taking turns sleeping in each other's laps and refusing to let you out of their sight.

~~~~~

You open your eyes again, dreading what was to come. Every time you woke up they would poke and prod you, run tests and many other painful things only to sedate you once again. This time though it doesn't come, there's no voice stating you're awake even if you don't move. Nothing but silence.

You decide to risk it and crack your eyes open to see that the room is dark. There's some dim lights lighting up the room, enough that you can get a look around you. When you open your eyes and nothing happens you decide to take another risk and move enough to look at something besides the ceiling.

When you look to your side you see them. Your Loki and your Bucky asleep on a recliner. You'd seen them so many times in your dreams and each time they were ripped away from you before you could get to them. Tears come to your eyes as you try for the millionth time to reach out and touch them, shock filling you when you poke Loki on the cheek.