Holding Onto Heaven

Chapter 4: Vulnerable

Peter's POV:

It's been about 30 minutes. 30 minutes that I am awake and I can't take my eyes off her. She is lain next to me and still asleep . I'm listening to her calm heart rate which is such a sweet melody.
She looks so perfect but vulnerable at the same time because right now I could just...
I sight and caress her little face instead , her soft flawless skin . She lets out a little moan. She has these rosy cheeks and beautiful lips. Her brown hair falls perfectly on her face. And her body... Her body is covered of hidden beauty spots. She looks like a goddess coming straight from the greek mythology! She's a Venus. Or more a Persephone if we think of the story : the poor girl was abducted by the god-king of the under-wold, Hades. So that makes me the bad guy ? Hum...Yeah, I think so! But Persephone should've been more careful, it's all her fault.

I had an amazing night yesterday but I keep wondering... since when did I get so attached to humans? They're evil. It's not us werewolf who are monsters, they are! With their habits of acting as if they were the victims! I shouldn't get close to them : it always end up in a bloodshed anyway.
I look again at Sophia . It wasn't supposed to end up like this. I should've stick to my initial plan which was to take her to the restaurant then bite her after that to make her a werewolf since I don't have a pack. The kid that I bit, Scott doesn't appreciate me much and left me for another pack! But I couldn't, I just couldn't do it. I've failed. I feel like Napoleon during the Waterloo battle!

Enough with the comparisons. Since I met her I feel like she's different. Different from the others humans. I don't know what it is but it might be the reason why I didn't wanted to bite her. Maybe I have little sympathy for her? Feelings?

Impossible, I'm heartless. That's why I killed my niece Laura so I could be the Alpha, that I turned into a beast and killed a dozen of innocents in town or that I slashed Kate Argent's throat without any regrets. Sometimes I forget that. All I care of is my little person. I'm worried about nobody else but me, everyone in my entourage know it, especially Derek, who can't trust me anymore. This is why someone like her shouldn't be near a guy like me, she'll suffer and it will be too dangerous. She thinks I'm a good person, a weak human. She doesn't know the real me. The Peter who scares people. The Peter who takes advantage of persons, like Lydia Martin for example...Ow, when I think about it, that girl did suffered a lot. Maybe I should send a little apologize card to her "one of these days".

I just have one job: I have to stay away from Sophia, I think it is better for everyone.

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You were on Uncle Peter's mind! He's bad...but we already know that. I'll try to update very soon! And thank you guys for reading cause my only readers are usually my friends so thanks!