ABANDONED [COMPLETED]

We Made Bad Choices But~

I woke up with a groan,I grimace as the morning light illuminating from the curtains hanging at the windows hit me. I try sitting up but whimper from for the soreness in my lower part, that's when it finally hit me were I am. I remember being called by Kong's friend to come get him, because he got wasted in a clubhouse. Then we had sex,urgghhh!

My thoughts were interrupted when the said person comes in carrying a tray filled with morning delicacies,I could feel my stomach growl with hunger.

"Hey." He greets as he sets the tray beside the bed and gives me a small kiss on my mouth, pulling out before I could get what the hell that was.

"Hey." I just ignore the fact that he kissed me without my permission and responded to him with my very hoarse voice due to all the screaming and crying he made me do.

"How was your night,babe?"

"Fine."

"Ok,I uh... brought you breakfast,after that you can freshen up. I know you still remember where everything is. Nothing has changed uh...ever since you....left." I could feel the sadness in his voice as he says that but whose fault was that,he is to be blame for all the hardship I have been through,I almost lost my baby...and to think I blame the innocent baby for whatever was going on in my life that time. As my thoughts plays back all that has happened,I can feel tears streaming down my cheeks. I can't believe am even here in this house of deceit,the food might look appetizing but I just lost my appetite,I can't continue with this shit. It like,cold water has been thrown on me.

I scrambled on the bed in a hurry to get out of his presence and away from this house. I searched for my night wear which was scattered on the floor, putting them on hastely,I know he is saying something with distress but I can't be bothered by it,am not even hearing whatever he is saying,the tears streams profusely as time goes,I need to get back to my baby boy.

"Arthit, please stop this!!" I was immediately brought to earth by Kong's loud outburst,he had this look in his eyes as he hold my wrist in a firm grip stopping me from going out of the room and probably out of his life.

"Please baby, Please....you can't do this to me,to us,to our baby-..." Never ever mention his name ever again,he is my baby not ours,he is mine!!!" I interrupts his sentence as I scream my words out loud,this guy. He got the nerves to call my baby ours,Fiat is my baby,mine alone. And even that I know I don't deserve the title of being his mother,I am the most horrible parent any child could ever have,I abandoned him when it was not his fault I brought him to this world.

"Don't do this Arthit,I made a huge mistake,I was young back then but I know is still doesn't justify what I did to you and our baby, I was a major jerk,a fucking rapist. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness but pls baby give me a chance to make it up to you,I will use all my lifetime to prove to you how sorry I am. Please give me a chance to be with you and our precious bundle of joy,I will protect and make both of you the happiest. You two are all I have....*sob* I can't leave without you two *sob* please Arthit please,....*sob* I cry more as I see my husband break down in front of me on his knees begging for another chance, begging to be in the lives of me and our baby,all I see in those teary eyes of his is genuine regret,honesty,love and vulnerability. I knelt as well as we both finally let out our bottled up pain,we both cried with regret and guilt while he held me in his arms.

After we had nothing to cry out anymore,I gave him a kiss on his lip and wiped away the tears on his face. "I forgive...Not all of this is your fault anyway,I was no better than you...I was the worst,I was the one who abandoned him,left to die...I..I..I did that...a-am a h-horrible parent,Kong...I left him when I knew he could die..." I thought I had nothing to cry out but it's seemed I was wrong cause, whenever I think about how I left him at the hospital not even thinking about how the kid will be surviving all alone in there,I even forgot having a child before,I erased his existence from my mind,how could I?