I miss u

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by scribbilishdog

by scribbilishdog

All I know is I miss u and I should not be missing you bc it's a bad thing when I miss you I think of all the ways I could contact you today I know I still have your number on my phone but I also know it would only bring up more drama

then I think it would not be good bc my parents would get mad at me for saying

hey and I'm sorry

when it's not my fault

but it's not yours either

I know I could say hey through my ps4

bc I also have you as a friend on there

and I know we haven't talk in months but I'm still upset about the things you said too me

Bc they were hurtful manly the fact that you would think I'm capable

yea we might not be friends anymore but I would never do anything so bad to upset you I still miss u in my heart bc I feel as though we were closer then I've ever been with anyone else

You said to me

If your the one that ratted me out it would be f'ing messed up

It didn't even feel as a threat

and I don't think it was but there all trying to convince me that I'm so much better without you but I feel as though I'm being called towards yo by God to help you as though I'm the one you would listen I feel that our connection is still there but I know me and you as best friends could never happen again

While I try to get over you as my best friend I think hey maybe writing this down will make me understand that it's for the better

But....

As I write I just start to cry bc all I know is that I miss u and I wish we could still be friends
and it breaks my heart to know that we are not aloud to be friends.