YOU'RE MY ANTIDOTE

Chapter 2

"Young master, you need to wake up or else you'll be late to school" ,my maid said which caused me to wake up from my slumber.

"Hey, can you please shut up! Don't you know that I can fire you anytime if you still won't shut your mouth", I yelled which caused her to back off a little.

"Forgive me, young master. I won't do it again", she begged me.

I rolled my eyes and went back to lie in bed. I really don't wanna go to school because it's boring. The only thing that urged me to go to school is my friends. Well, I have a disease. A rare disease. Doctors can't even distinguish what kind of disease I have because I didn't have this disease since I was born. I was diagnosed after a certain accident a few years back. I didnt remember anything from the accident, i just knew that I was in an accident because my parents told me so.

Well my disease forbids me to feel different kind of emotions except for hatred. I can't feel happinness, excitement, and the feeling of being scared. If someone I met will not reach my likings, I automatically bully him/her and the worst thing is that, I can't control myself from doing so. Well, deep inside my heart, I felt guilty but my actions always do the opposite. Even though I wanted to apologize or something, I always do things the other way around or worse. When I'm alone, I really can't feel any sense of sympathy towards other people that I dislike but when I'm with my friends, I can feel the guilt and analyze my wrong doings. However, I'm still a beast. A cold beast. My friends are not the cure for my disease but they helped me feel at ease. Doctors don't know what can cure my illness but one's thing for sure, I have to find my antidote.

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"Come eat your breakfast"' My mom said as she saw me walking down the stairs.

"Why are you acting nice? You've always treated me like I'm not your child. So tell me, what do you want now" I replied angrily.

My mom is very cruel to me. She often told me that I'm not her real son, which I wish was true, but my father assured me that I'm her biological son. I don't even know why dad married a girl like her. She haven't treated me like a son and treated me like a peasant otherwise. I always seeked for her attention before when I was younger, but after that one accident, I don't anymore. I realized that I can manage myself without asking for her help. My disease also helped me to be mature and not be the crybaby I once was. Well my disease forbids me from many things and make me do things I never thought I would do but I'm happy for one thing, it's that it helped me treat my mother the way he treated me which I couldn't do before.

"Where are your manners? You weren't like this before you were diagnosed with that disease. You shouldn't make your disease a reason for you to treat me like this. I'm still your mother", my mother fumingly said.

"Wow, mother? I don't remember having a mother and I don't remember you being my mother. Also, I'm not using my disease to treat you badly. Who knows, maybe you're the one who caused me this disease so shut the f*ck up while I'm being nice. You never know what I can do to you", I talked back.

"Yah, do whatever you want. I don't even care." she said.

I walked pass her when she suddenly talked again.

"You'll be sent to the states to study. Don't even think about protesting, that'll do nothing. Also your flight will be at 8 pm", she exclaimed.

"What? No. How many times have I told you that I'm not going. Even if you threaten me, I wont be bothered. Well that's what you always do, threatening people", i said while walking towards the door.

"Yah, Na Jaemin!", she raged.

I then quickly went outside the mansion and before I could lock the gate, the bodyguards stopped me. I was captivated by them and tried to escaped from their tight grips. I really can't do it so I kicked their crotches and finally escaped. I ran as fast as I could until I was exhausted. I tried to hide inside a convenience store and calmed myself until they saw me inside. I quickly went outside the store and started running again. I reached an alley so I hid behind the corner. I noticed that they saw a girl from near me and I automatically knew that they will hurt the girl in order for me to surrender to them. What they don't know is that I can't feel the need to protect other people from harm so I sighed in relief. I was about to keep running until I saw them aproaching the girl but before they could approach her, they were stopped by the stoplight and on the other hand, I grabbed the girl's hand towards where I was situated.

"What do you think you're doing? " she said sounding shocked but calm.
How in the world did she managed to do it?

"Keep quiet, or else you'll die! " I said.

" What!! I don't even know you so will you please let go of me? " she said sounding terrified.

"Just keep quiet, will you? Don't you know that you're in danger now since they saw you here with me. I'm just trying to protect you here mylady" I replied being dumbfounded from what I just said.

I really don't know what in the world happened today. It's just too much to process. First, I got told to go to states to study. Second, I was being chased by my bodyguards and third, I am with a girl... What!??

This girl is quite unique. I feel like I wanted to protect her-what? Why am I like this? I've never felt this for anyone before. I have this disease yknow so what's happening now? I thought I wouldn't mind her being hurt by my bodyguards but I found myself beside her protecting her. I don't even know? Can I finally be able to live like how normal people live? Can I finally feel different emotions other than hatred?? Someone enlighten me...