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the beginning of everything !!!

It's 1st Feb I should be at my pg and been preparing for my coming exam... Exam Yeahhh you are right finally I am one step closer to my dream.. A very big dream.. Hey wait main introduce kiya kya khud ko...sorry I forgot.. I am Sana aka shehnaaz...different name na I know and you must be thinking why is she talking too much so let me clear you.. I am very talkative but only with my closed ones.. I did my graduation in B.SC biotechnology and now preparing for upsc civil services... Aaj Kuch ho rha hai jo meri life Hmesha k liye badal Dega... It's so strange that I am feeling numb to the surrounding which is full of hustle bustle... Yeah you are guessing it right... Mujhe dekhne aa rhe hai ladle wale.. Jitna maine suna hai this is the same guy who ones in past rejected mine proposal but his dad was adamant to make us meet each other and then to decide anything.. But I am free I know he rejected me earlier so he will do the same again...  And really I can't marry him I love someone else... And he loves me too so I can't do this to him but I also can't dissapointed my family so I agreed to meet this guy and end this for once and all..
           They came... Come on sana it's your final chance you can't let your dreams to fall apart like this... Just a little courage please speak to them.. Let them know that you are not ready... Come on.
My bhabhi yeah I have a bhabhi wife of my elder brother and a younger brother too.. And believe me she is the typical nanad bhabhi wali bhabhi(sweet on face but bitter on back) chodo yrr..  Inki baat ni krni Abhi.. Abhi sir ko dekhte hai jo hme dekhne aaye hai..
   
    Wow man... Main kyu hu yha... Maine kya tha Mujhe ni aana aapke sath but my parents they so stubborn... Ohh hii forget to introduce my self.. I am Sidharth Maan ITO working in Mumbai and leaving with my parents in gurugram...i am here to meet my potential future wife... I have met many girls in past but things did not went there way some of them don't like me and my job and with some of them I couldn't feel that connection... So Aaj maine yha hu... And frankly speaking I left everything on my parents and bua jii(father's sister) .. Let's see where will our destiny take us...
      Sana: Ohhh no God please please I can't do this... No this is so wrong how will I face him.. What will say to him... It's so bad... Why it's happening with me God please save me from this... My heart is aching... My head is throbbing... Tears are flowing endlessly from my eyes while I was preparing lunch with the help of my real bhabhi and my cousin bhabhi... Why can't they see I am not ready... I want time I need time... He will be broken I will be broken... Why can't this guy see my tears my hollow face devoid of any emotions..
2 hrs earlier hey you wanna meet him... My bhabhi asked me with full enthusiasm she already have an idea that I am in love with Someone else still she is asking me this question... But as always do I have choice... Nope.. I was in my room when that guy came and sit in front of me... I want to see who the hell is he who want to marry me after rejecting me just few months before but my betrayed me I can't even look at him.. My eyes were heavy with unshed tears I just want to elope from that place... Please I can't do this to three of us.. My parents asked me to just meet him for once and they will give me time for completing my dreams but now it's looks like I am gone... I can barely hear what he was telling me about himself and asked me some questions which I answered monotonously... I was just praying to receive a no.. Please God don't do this to me...
   But now am here but now I'm standing in my Kitchen preparing dishes for my would be in laws... shedding tears... cursing my fate... they ask me for my answer... but what they expected.... I will refuse them even after knowing that my father is crying just to hear my yes... I am feeling like I have cheated him... how will I answer his questions.. why this is so difficult to choose between your father and your lover... What should i do know..  They said yes to this proposal and reason is unknown... Please help me bhgwan jii.. I have never done any bad of anyone so why here stuck with this situation...
Authour's note: please deal with my English and my writing skills..  I don't know how it's going I just hope u people will find it interesting